lembus!

Gah! Thanks to mischievous! I had a blast!
Such a cliche isn't it?

Rain . Scool uniform . Plastic Bags . Ice-cream . Walk . Kuala Lumpur

Reminds me of our first 'date' ain't it? Well I dunno what else to say but I reaaalllly had fun and I appreciate what you did today.

Many have start calling me up and stuff and to my surprise kittykat! called me all the way from perth! Goyang bontot i suppose? :P

I can assure you that I'm fine... Serious! It's just I'm having one of the teenage anoyying problem thing going on but I'm really hoping that it'll be over....soon!

The 'she' is just another 'she' alright. Either you understand it or you dont. :P
As best as i can, I'm trying to forget all about her, trying to ignore her and stuff but all of you know that it ain't easy yeah. It'll take a lot of time so yeah! Screw it...

Anyways I appreciate what everyone's done yeah. From that crazy outing to another baking session with maya to crazy skyping to that late night to feeding me with chicks!
Just so you know, this maybe the one time I'm gonna write it here...

I L.o.v.e all of you asses! :)

Maya.Joe.Sya.Melissa.Ween.Lyn.Farra.Adam.Flip.Ija.Hani!

Penat siot!
Screw it tetap screw it! :P

do u knw that damn blogger takes almost half the time i shit to upload a damn pic so if u wanna see all our wild pics... go look at my devianart aite suckers!

Pain

Why do you have to love someone and be sorry?


"I Love you, and I'm sorry I do"






I dare you to face that

lament

Believe it or not, I have wanted to lament for a long time but never actually had the chance.
Yeah, I'm that preoccupied.
Today I managed to come home early, although eyes were shut, I was lamenting.

It's not fair that only I have this feeling
Stuck in this situation
No where to go
It's too complicated that I'm afraid to even open up
So I stay closed
Trying to find answers on why am i stuck here
Until i asked myself "What have I done wrong?"

I got all the answers after that
Damn it....
I shouldn't have
I shouldn't have
I shouldn't have
I shouldn't have
I knew that all my wrongdoings won't go unpunished
Little did i know that this is the punishment

What can i do to make it all better?
I really can't stand it anymore
You shoud've told me you were gonna do this to me when i first saw you
Now its all coming back to me

I've feelings with someone I know I'm not supposed to
And I've got so close to the point of there's no turning back
Exit doors are shut
I'm banging on it to break it open
But it won't
Stay close and I'll suffer every second spent acknowledging the truth
And the truth? Is that nothing will happen
Stay away and I'll suffer to see her alone
Stay away and I'll suffer to....
not answering her calls
not answering her texts
avoid her eyes
avoid bumping into her
How am I suppose to do all that when the first thing in mind when i wake up is her?
So what should i do????
Either choice ends up with me suffering


You know you're in love when...
-you expect her on your phone every time it rings
-you expect her on your phone when you receive a text
-you slip down the stairs staring at her
-you'd wake up early, study hard, ditch ur mates just for her
-you go crazy just for her attention
-your mind wonders on how beautiful she is when you talk to her
-She's the first thing on your mind when you wake up
-you mispelled some words to her name
-you keep spotting her name everywhere from tv producers, book authors, wedding invitations, billboards....and so on....

But I know that how much I lament
Nothing will change
Only maybe time will tell
While I stay here, no where to go, no where to hide
I have 9 months left to the ending of this
I wonder what will happen to me after that
Knowing she'll have someone new
Knowing I can't be looking forward to see her anymore
Knowing I won't be in her mind as how she will always be in mine....



Don't hurt others
Because the price is something that you can't pay although how strong you are.
Sorry.

Of 14th february and insanity

SO! Valentine's Day huh? haha yeap where shall i start?

okay.. here goes...

Dear Mischievous,

I thank you again for a very wonderful yet suspenseful yet awesome yet amazing night ey?

Why do i feel that every time spent with you is just worth remembring? Just cant forget about it la. I turn everywhere and i will surely remember something about the night.

-I saw an ice cream truck :P
-I saw the thing in the first row of 7-11! :P
-All my music player's playing future sex/love sound :P
-I went pass La Senza :P
-I keep spotting the word 'doggy' and 'BICYCLE!' :P
-I walked through Jalan Raja Chulan :P

Haha i strongly feel that you are having the same thing as i am?? :P
Well, we BLAME stupird chris brown don't we?
We could've spent a SAFE and HARMLESS night.
But instead!

White roses . TGI's . Spontaneous . Romantic . Jalan Raja Chulan . Dancefloor . WILD!

Oh yeah!!! Well, you're just getting mischiever by the minute aren't you?!

xoxo,
mischief!

If im up to it, yeah i'll say something about forensics and farah's 17.... what?! i cant? too obscene?!?!

Abang's counting down.. :P
Screw it....

Some Things Just Have To Be Blogged!

Thats right! Im just here to tell you what i learnt on friday... Oh wait, i skipped classes on friday... So THURSDAY! I swear to god its the first thing i learnt from EST lesson by THE awesome:

TEACHER SC! :)

She was teaching about how unhealthy instant frozen burger is so i was curious: who haven't eaten a burger in their life so i enquired! :P

FD : Teacher! Then you've never eaten a burger in ur whole life is it?

Teacher: Yes, Of course. Before i did, but now i make my own burgers.

FD : Huh?! How do you make your own burgers la teacher?

(She comes close to my table to explain)

Teacher: Oh very easy.... You buy a whole chicken. Cut out the BREAST part. And you make it ROUND

(I swear to god she was smiling as i couldn't tahan anymore)

FD : REALLY?! (merely laughing)

Teacher: Yes. Why are you laughing?

FD : I love EST, teacher! :P


HAHAHAHA thats right mates!
You SEE!!! I dont flirt with teachers! Teachers flirt with me!
Knowing me, you dont expect me to resist that would you?!

Damn week.
Screw it....

what are the odds 2 person tagged you in the same shit?

Rules:
Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you

1. I dont know how i agreed to do this tag bcos i just dont bother other times

2. Whats up with people assuming that i have a girlfriend? so what if i have?

3. In my mind, women are always naked... (most of em anyway) :P

4. I can do wonders on the phone... thats right! ;)

5. I dont like parties and partying... hahahaha serious shit :P

6. I strongly believe on the fact that age is just a number... yeah!

7. Kisses doesnt mean much to me... i blame my worst sin: LUST

8. Stronger self-control is the one thing i hope i could have

9. My goal is to stay away from the things that im not supposed to do. (i have failed to do so) :P

10. I have hurt many hearts. And i swore i dont mean any of them.

11. If i could turn back time, I'd still be friends with a few awesome people.

12. What goes around, comes around.... dont ever mock people, why do u think im on braces?

13. People say i always get what i want, well its sad that i cant have the one thing i really want the most

14. Family is my upmost priority. You hurt my family, i make you suffer.

15. Never would i thought i'd stay in St. John's until form 5.

16. I prefer travelling alone, it resembles adventure and coolness... also i have all the time to myself........to check out the stewardess!! :P

17. In my room, there are a stack of FHM's that you will NEVER find! :P

18. I AM a sweet tooth.

19. I could choose to be a race driver prefessionally if it wasnt for my passion over aviation

20. I hate it when people think that i cant speak malay, HEY! its my mother tounge! And i grow up according to proper MALAY culture... bangga siot!!

21. Small and cute's my thing although hot and sexy are always the ones i go for... :P

22. I admit Maya is the best! she makes awesome-est choc-filled cupcakes that i lovess!! Im gonna invest in opening her bakery some day

23. I cool down and melt when i get ice-cream, donuts, cupcakes!, cakes, muffins, all these pastry stuff la

24. Most of you dont know, haha thats what this is for.....I am a pre-mature baby.

25. You never know if im mocking you even when im smiling... so SMILE asses!! :D


NOW, i tag those who have read this. Yeah! i mean YOU! i wanna know 25 nonsense about you!
I blame this tag to melissa and gina... except melissa's was 16, not 25 but what the hell la...


Hectic February!
Screw it...

Work lead me to her

PCC annual dinner ball was the bomb... I'm gonna be mysterious and tell you about the highlight of the night, the most most amazing most awesome most out of my mind thing that happened....



Scene 1 starts

F : *talks to himself while watching her enter the hall*.....Damn she's looking smoking hot, Fcuk, she's leaving for japan soon.... *melts*

Mr F walks away with his mind fantasizing on her and resuming duty

Scene 1 finishes








Scene 2 starts

Everyone was around socializing while the jazz singer was at the front, Mr F was leaning at the open bar staring into spaces UNTIL she walks towards him with a smile

H T: *giggles* heard you're the man behind tonight...

F : heard you're leaving me for japan...(maintaining so-called macho in a very flirtacious tone)

H T: *smiles* Well since i lost my no.1 fan, i wasn't left with much choices am i? *smiles*

F : hah! really?! *grabs his phone and showed her 'indah' on his phone playlist*...u still think so?

H T : *amazed look with smile* Thats the first time my music's on a phone rather than my own....

F : Told ya... So does that means you're not leaving for japan?

H T : Awww you give me every reason not to haha but u know its just something i have to do....
Ey wait.... *smiles then laugh* you really got me in the mood, i forgot who i was talking to.

F : ohh well.... *stares while hurting inside*

H T : wow, you really dont want me to go... i never figured... come on, u should be happy for me..

F : Hah i am happy... Its just... i dont want you to fall for a japanese guy, they're blergh!

H T : *laugghhs* awwww you know the main reason im there right... *laughs* besides, I will be
waiting for you.... *stares naughtily*

F : *laughs* im not sure i can wait though *laughs*

H T : So dont blame me then...*laughs*.....

Mr F was thinking hard of how to get the conversation going until he saw the people on the dance floor all nice and intimate...

F : * Damn! should i ask her or not??! ohh fuck!!! what if she says no?! I'll look like an idiot...
Well, she has been obliging all night... ah wtf la!*

F : You know what would make me the most luckiest guy on the whole planet tonight?

H T : What?

F : If you, hannah, would care to dance with me... *panicked* but i totally understand if u dont
want to and i'd totally...

H T : I'd love to....

Walks over to the dance floor with her hands and danced.... It was the most meaningful 3 minutes plus plus of Mr F's life as all he did was stared at her beautiful eyes, gorgeous lips and beautiful face. It could've been more if the music was longer but it stopped..

Scene 2 finishes












Scene 3 starts

It was the end of the ball and everyone was making their move and Mr F was heartbroken because she was no where to be seen until nita came to him...

Nita : Eh firdaus, that lady u were steaming on tadi asked for you, she's at the foyer.....

F : Say no more....

Mr F runs to the foyer like he's never run before and saw her smiling then laughing when he was panting

H T: wow wow... relax, im going nowhere.. well i am making my move

F : Sorry didn't catch u inside just now.. Didnt see you

H T: *Smiles* Its okay, u see me now.... *smiles*

F: *smiles* You making a move?

H T: ohh yeah apparently, gotta wake early tomorrow.. another long day awaits

F : Oh then I just wanna wish you all the best in japan, hope you succeed in the industry and make sure i hear you all the way from here okay... *smiles*

H T: Of course! and thanks so much... I never know i have such young caring fans eh no no, admirers...*smiles*

F : Guess you won't be attending our ball again next year?

H T: *laughs* Well you might never know the things i'd do for you... You study smart okay and
take care of yourself, dont worry about me, i'm a big girl.....

F: *Stares like he never stared her before*

H T: Aww you..... *hugs him!*

F : *Felt like he's is cloud 9 and partly steaming!* I'll be in your website everyday!!! update okay

H T : *lets go of the hug* Know what, you can have my email ad, i can trust you with it right??

F: OF COURSE!!!!!

H T: *laughs* Its ***************.... Make sure u dont leave it lying around...

F : PROMISE!! Well.........bye hannah

H T: *Kiss goodbye then smiles* Bye firdaus...

Mr F was left while watching her walk out of the door with 'indah' playing in his mind and out of sight....

Scene 3 finishes





That was the most extravagant thing ever happened to me... Yes, H T is hannah sarah tan and F is well, yours truly...

Damn i miss her so damn badly already.... But what the hell!! i got her private email while the rest of you assholes still go to her website... :P

I'm sleepy....
Screw it...