4.37am

Sometimes I wonder why am I doing this to myself

How can I be in this position in the first place

You obviously didn't care about me like how you used to

And I miss how you did

Because you gave me the world

Cant help thinking that you were just trying get something from me

How could you?

Were you faking everything?

It all felt so real

All those words you spoke

All those promises you made

All those hope you gave me

All the love you comfort me with

It all just seem so clear now

When everything's over

You got what you wanted

I'm left alone

You don't even care what's about to happen

Congratulations I must say

You really had me

I put you on top of everything else

Even when I've realized all this

I still hope for you

How did you do it

I cant hate you

Because I'm thinking its okay for me to get hurt

I dont want you to get hurt

Even after all those things you did

It's best that you don't even try and contact me again

I don't think you will anyway

For you, I may just be another person that come and go

But to me

You're the sweetest memory I ever had

And it remains

Only as memories

Now I have to get over you

And it's so hard

I cant even delete your texts

God help me through this...............

3.48am - I'm still thinking of you

I dont really know love
I didnt know it would come to me like this
My heart doesnt act like it wants to in front of my love

If I knew I was going to be like this,
I wouldn’t have started in the first place
Like a fool, I am regretting this late

I wished that you wouldnt be my love
I wished that it wouldnt be you
You deceited me, telling me that its not love

I hoped that it would be a passing by fate
Because painful wounds will be left on me
But even when I know this, I am still greedy
It keeps getting me sad

I thought that it was a wrong start
I thought so easily
I believed that I could always call you

What should I do?
Where did it go wrong?
I need to avoid this love
But I yearn for everything about you

I wished that you wouldnt be my love
I wished that it wouldnt be you
You deceited me, telling me that its not love

I hoped that it would be a passing by fate
Because painful wounds will be left on me
But even when I know this, I am still greedy
It keeps getting me sad

Now if its not you, there is no meaning to anything
I can’t contain myself anymore
The fact that I have to erase you
Today again,

It makes it even more hard..

Fucked Up

I didnt mean to be rude to you

But it's the only way to make you hate me

When you hate me, it'll be much easier for me to forget all about you

And it'll be much easier for you to forget all the nice things I did for you







I want to have a proper goodbye with you

But I'm afraid I won't let go of your hands if I do

I'm afraid you'd ask me to stay

But I so badly want to hear you ask me to stay

Because I will

Still I have to go, to stop hurting myself





I wanted so much to tell you everything

But I realized real life isn't movies where everything becomes okay in the end

And I'm afraid you'd hate me for it



I wish I didn't get close to you in the first place

I wish I didn't fall for you that night

I wish I didn't have to go



What am I joking

Of course you'll be fine by yourself

It doesn't make a difference if I'm not around anyway

But you should know

Your absence will make all the difference in my life








I'm sorry I have to go

I wanna call you but you currently hate me now

Let's leave it like that

And pretend I never existed

It's for the best





I love you

But you'll never know it

I'm sorry I cant tell you

So take of yourself

Goodbye.........

Taldellic

It Hurts







............so much

Chikas, lo siento.

I know you're reading this although you try avoiding.



I'm just gonna say

I'm Sorry.
To all three of you.



I understand if you're gonna avoid me and all
But understand that I don't regard you any different.
Nothing changes.
Not the slightest bit.


I hope we'd still hang out when I finish later okay.
I really do wanna talk to y'all.

So gimme a call yeah. :)