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2012-01-05T00:43:00.002+08:00

A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another,

they will fall for each other.

Maybe at the same time, maybe at the wrong time, maybe temporarily,

maybe too late, or maybe forever.

Stupid love post again.

Eh sial betul la! haha!

Friday, 30th December 2011

2011-12-30T11:21:00.003+08:00

Lets be honest now shall we, this blog is now only a surviving piece of memory throughout the years. Yeah sure there are pictures and everything but i dunno, its different.

I spent the last hour or 2 or 3 haha browsing through my old posts in this blog. Truly, maturity has kicked in over the years. To be reading all those posts from years back, I cant believe it was actually me who actually wrote all those. At one point, I was absolutely sure I was hacked but the details written made me sure than it was undeniably, yours truly. :)

True, blogspot is really yesteryear but Im glad I made this blog. I've never had a diary or some sort of it so this blog exists as a written memories throughout my life. And the best part is, although how lame or funny the posts is, at one point of time in the past, it was actually YOU who wrote everything. haha so accept it! :)

Maturity has clearly kicked in me. To be honest, I miss the old 15 year old carefree me who started this blog out of sheer boredom due to fever. Bcos that guy's most highest worry would be: "All the homeworks due to my fever will kill me" and after 5 minutes it'll be : "oh well, fuck it!" Hahaha... But now, my whole future is laid in front of me for me to think: what degree should i take, would it be good career wise, is it gonna be worth it etc etc....

As you grow older, yeah, heavier responsibilities is laid upon you and you have to be very sensible in making your choices as it may affect your future. Deep inside, actually you're just a child, gambling to make big choices which you hope to be good for you.

Oh well.

OH! I just noticed from my past posts. Its all mostly been about girls haven't they? HAHA LOVE mannn, its what it does to ya.

LOVE. haha I'd rather look at it as a funny word. It can melt even the coldest person there ever is. Bcos of love, I have typed some of the most hillarious post there ever is in this blog. But at that point, that all seem so appropriate. I have used words that I wouldn't ever use in real life. Browsing through this blog have made me found these really unorthodox words! :

-divine intervention
-fate
-miracle
-overwhelm
-lucky
-defy gravity
-the right one
-risk
-eternity

AHAHAHAHAHA kill words that totally indicate your balls have melted due to love.

I did think damn, I should put down or just remove all these damn lame-ass posts but as my best friend once said to me "Its good to have it there, it serves as a reality check for you" I guess she's right. As she always is.

Honestly, I haven't really been a goodie yeah. Probably all the heartbreaks poured on lamely in this very blog was all well-deserved which at one point seemed very "unfair". :P I strongly believe in karma so yeah, there's nothing that you do that you dont deserve, even the bad things. Be sorry for what you've done wrong, but never regret it because at one point, it was exactly what you wanted.

I wouldn't say Im a better person now, Im still learning but Im definitely a better person than who I was.

Its almost the end of another year, I could say 2011 was a tough one but then again, nothing's ever to easy ey. im ending the year where I've finished my A-levels awaiting my results, a job that is reasonably rewarding, nieces and a nephew whom I love to bits, best physical shape I've been in years, great friends around, happy family, much closer to my best friend and also yeah, someone that usually appears in my wild dreams as a girlfriend. It wasn't such an easy journey this year but thankfully, all is good now. Thank god.

I really dont know how many are actually reading this blog or rather to say is there really anyone who visits this blog but I dont mind. Its just my personal space for thoughts anyway. The lesser people who know, the better. And besides, those who has this link or rather still remember it and visit are probably ones that i hold on to dearly so its okay. I appreciate it.

Really sorry if any of these dont make sense though. Thanks to kev, Im typing all these after a third glass of whiskey so all these might not make sense or sounds a bit cerebral.

All in. Thanks 2011. Its been great. Hope everything goes well for me and for everyone else in 2012.

Much love,
Firdaus Ruslan

Of your beautiful smile that I really like

2011-10-15T01:35:00.005+08:00

RTJA. Well she's very sensitive about the hyphens so its actually
RTJ-A. :)

This one aint like any other because the whole story amuses me every single time I think about it. Until now, its amazing, even. :)

It all started last year when I saw who I thought was you at PBIM in december, running. I was in your class for one whole semester and the most we exchanged were smiles, and that was about everything.

To come from 2 different strangers for a whole semester to now is well, something a little short of a miracle or maybe i'd rather look at it as fate. Anyways, for seeing who I thought was you, I got to speak to you for the first time. From there on, we found a common ground : running. Until I decided to take a step further bcos I felt something, entirely different in myself ever since you came around. And I liked it, so much bcos it aint like any other. It felt new. I felt better, so much better.

Personally, I wasn't expecting much since well, we were very least likely to happen and it was against all odds anyway.

Since what happened in 2009 and the 12 months that it took to recover. I became very cautious in my every step, in my every approach. But I guess you really overwhelmed me. For someone who's been a still rock for about 2 years, what you had me felt was overwhelming. And I liked it bcos I was generally a better person, someone who I really wanted to be, when you came around.

Seeing who you are, I knew I had to be careful and be subtle in my every step and that was exactly what I did. And I enjoyed what we had bcos at one point, we were constantly texting, running marathons, messaged each other. It felt really nice bcos I got to see something in you that you've always kept concealed and dont show just anyone. In a way, I felt lucky bcos you showed me the side of you that kept me excited, every single time. That's why you never fail to make my day with even the small gestures you do or say.

Despite my best efforts, the inevitable came around. I guess you realized I wasn't the one for you or even close to being the one. But I dont blame you, our differences will only complicate things in the future. Maybe what happen now is for the best.

But Im going to be honest now, even having said that the future will look really challenging for us, I was ready to put my foot down and work for us. Bcos I guess what I felt was really that strong. I was prepared to make it work for us, to go thru every challenge there is ahead, to defy gravity. But I think only I was prepared, and I cant do it alone. You didn't want to do it.

I cant help it but think that you were afraid. Bcos you just left everything hanging. I didnt even know what I did wrong. Maybe it was bcos what I did was right that scared you. Maybe you were scared to proceed. Again, I dont blame you, you're new to all this. Prolly I wasn't worth the risk anyway. But who knew.

To think of it, divine intervention happened a lot between us to just leave it like this. Bcos you later told me it wasnt you who I saw. And I accidentally joined PBIM last year, so happen to see someone who I thought was you. Oh well.

We had a good few months but well, I just wasn't satisfied bcos it could've been longer and there's a lot more things that we could've had fun doing. I never thought I'd be this healthy if it wasn't for you in the very first place. I cant help thinking what if you took the risk. The thought of going against all odds with you looks really nice despite not knowing how the end of the journey looks like.

I am writing all this however, witha big smile on my face. Yeah it didn't end that well but, somehow I dont know what you did to me that kept me smiling everytime you came to my mind. And trust me, you're in my mind quite often. :)

Nah, Im not sad. Im just overwhelmly happy it happened, even if it was just for a little while. Bcos its been a long time since someone got me head over heels. The feeling's nice actually.

I know the feelings aint mutual and im prolly just syok sendiri but hey, im happy doing so, so who cares. :)

Thanks idol, RTJ-A. You'll always be that person who turned me into a much better person. Physically and Spiritually. Thanks for the memories. :)

Lonelyteddiebear. :)

2011-06-28T20:05:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, you just dont know what to do anymore when everything you do isn't good enough. You start thinking you ain't worth it in the first place.

Sony w810i

2011-06-15T16:01:00.005+08:00

Exams are over, so best? Yeap yeap but crap, holidays without vacations and still lotsa crap to do aint really holidays but oh well, at least a few worries are off the head.

Alright well, Im lucky enough today to have a quite free schedule on this very sunny wednesday afternoon. Since I've nothing much to do except laze at home, I decided to switch my old phone back, Emma, the white Sony W810i since a lot of anonymous numbers came in these past few weeks so yeah. And the fact that Im bad at names aint helping either. :)

DAMN THERE"S A LOT OF SHIT IN THERE!

Haha I changed phone so abruptly last year that I didnt even bother to transfer all those videos, pics and contacts inside there.

But yeah a year later, it was put back to life. Damn, and I always wondered how the craaaaaap I went haywire for about the whole year. I went to the inbox and I saw all the reasons why. From the 1st text tilllllllllllllllllll the last one.

And I got all my answers. No wonder lah aku jatuh gila babi! Message dia steam steam doh! Patut ah goyaaaaang! HAHAHAHA a lil part of me smiled, a lil part was sad, a lil part was a bit diisapointed, a lil part of me laughed, a lil part of me was thankful. All in, I was just merely out of words.

To see how it never had a fullstop, was just sad lah, and hard, but then again, from where I am right now, I see why it ended like that. At the end of last year, I placed the other half of the fullstop to the half that has always been there a year back.

As much as I wanna be angry about it, I just choose not to. At least not anymore. For sure, I used to be really angry and shit but who wouldn't lah. First time ah bro, mmg ah! :)

But from where I am right now, I just wanna say thank you, really, seriously. For showing me or rather making me experience what its like. Both ways. Truly, it was fun. I had a lot of fun during that time. A lot of stuffs were made easy for me. You pulled me out of a big crap. :)

Sure of course I hoped that things ended up nicely, siapa taknak kot! Tgk je la kau sekarang! Pergh! :P But I realized that my time was over, I guess thats how things work. Move on and on and on and on.

Im sorry to say this but, Im happy and glad that things didn't turn out well, from where you are right now, things would be really awful for us. So I guess its true kan, things happen for a reason. :)

Heh to be really honest, I've dated a few since then, but nothing came even close I think. And somehow I still think of you at times, very randomly. And whenever I do, despite how much I wanna call or hope your text or your call would come in, I just ended up smiling. Widely.

The most I could do was pull back that one picture I kept. And say :

"Hey, I miss you. And I hope you're doing well. I know you are"

And with a big smile on my face, closed the book, and move on. :)

Invictus

2011-04-06T18:44:00.005+08:00

I was soundfully asleep last night till a text came in at 7 in the morning.

Then everything just kinda felt different. All those stuffs from 2 years back just came flooding in and yeah, the guilt was actually never washed away.

Things are the way they are for a reason, Mischief.

Did I ever wish things worked out?
Without doubt heck yeah. haha

Do I regret how things ended up?
Well a bit yeah but like I said in my textbook answer, it happens for a reason. trust me. ;)

Have you ever crossed my mind?
I know you assume that you dont but you do, how can you not when I keep you really close to me. trust me. ;)

I know you having able to count the times you've seen me sucks but its better like this and its also better if you dont know why. And im nt quoting bruno mars. ;)
Now things are no shit anymore, so I've set my priorities straight. trust meee. ;)
What we've had was priceless, Mischief. That never changed.

Circumstances might change but I want you to always know that Im just a call away okay.

Yeah. I miss you. Take care. Seriously.
:)

6th October - Deja Vu

2010-10-07T17:40:00.003+08:00

There are days where its fun, sad, depressing, eventful but if you asked me to describe yesterday with one word- I cant.

Im lost with words. And you say Im good with words huh?

So check this:

-During break in college, someone I knew briefly came up to me and said 'you're in luck today'. I responded by saying 'Yes I am, I met you.' Haha I still got it but little did I knw that my day was still early

-After college, a bunch of us hit tutti frutti in bsc only to bump with the siblings there. As I was enjoying my tutti frutti, someone unfamilliar gave me a nice smile and waved. Being modest, I thought it wasn't for me but as she got closer, it was Vera. I was lost for words. After what 4? 5 years of texting and IM's and surprise parcels and phone calls, I finally met her.

-It was a pleasant surprise. She looked very pretty in person. I was so shocked, I was gushing like an idiot. Apparently I didnt realize until the whole family and also the guys told me. Haha what can I say, it was unexpected. I dont think we'd ever hang out, better off like this ey? Haha Im just hoping for a lot more bumps into you, Vera. Or glamourly called, smallie. :)

-As I was driving back from Bsc with Yana, she told me 2 words, 'why not?'. haha ass!

-1.45am in the morning when I was studying, Evon my kindergarden mate from Australia texted me, 'Hey I dreamt of you, whatever you wanna do, do it okay, you'll be fine, miss you lots'

WHAAAAAAAAAAAT????

This is scary. But oh wells, we'll see how it goes.

On top of my effin head.

2010-08-08T14:21:00.004+08:00

-Reese's peanut butter cup chocolates
-Hard Rock shirt
-Spain world cup champs jersey
-Ray Ban shades
-Giordano ladies jacket
-Engraved docktag
-Eve of 17th July
-DKNY apple delicious perfume
-Strawberry tasted lips
-Ribbons
-Warehouse dress
-Tutti Fruti
-Slow Dance
-Instantaneous dates
-Hugh Grant's character in Notting Hill
-The Beatle's she loves you
-Singing partner
-Ooooh, butter chicken
-AS Trials
-The phone call
-The text

If its not bcos of my believe in everything happens for a reason, I would've really wish I could go back to this time last year and enjoy the companionship I once had.

Screw it.

Oh hang on, nahh screew it! :P

2010-05-23T02:06:00.004+08:00

It was great to see the Johannians back. It was just great bcos in the end of the day you know that those faces are the faces you went through shit together for 5 freaking years.

Compare how I influence you during your exams and how he influence you during your exams.
A big ass difference.
Maybe you're more hardworking now who knows ey?
I wish you all the best and all the happiness in the world yo. :)

I miss ND, come back to me soon, you give strength to my two balls. :)
Sem break soon!
HELL FREAKING YES! :)

Broken Strings

2010-05-08T15:29:00.006+08:00

TOO many addictions. Its seriously unhealthy. :)

It tears me up.
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much,
I tried to forgive but its not enough,
To make it all okay

You cant play on broken strings,
You cant feel anything,
That your heart dont want to feel,
I cant tell you something that aint real,

The truth hurts and lies worse,
How can I give anymore,
When I love you a little less than before.

Running back through the fire,
When there's nothing left to save,
Its like chasing the very last train,
When we both know its too late.

Let me hold you even for the last time.

Awesome! :)

GE-LI! :P

2010-03-24T01:42:00.002+08:00

GLEEE!!! HAHAHAHAHA

We're going to open up a glee team soon yeah guys??? HAHAHA

Pavillion, Kuala Lumpur

2010-03-18T15:49:00.009+08:00

I tried avoiding Pavillion like hell for obvious reasons :)
Yesterday spent the whole day with Sya to get her new college outfits there.
Other than it was crowded with lifeless school kids, :P it was a great day out

We went to a lot of stores but I remembered Parkson and Tangs so well
Then we had Jco and and bought bread at BreadTalk
And we just left our money for drinks at the kiosk outside BreadTalk bcos there was no one at the counter
Then had Carlos', cant believe I let her shisha in front of me! Underage! :P

Until I realized, Im seeing things, from 3 months ago at the same stores doing the same things but with a different person :(
I was just simply walking down memory lane without realizing it

And it HIT me!

It . Wasn't . The . Same

I miss what used to be.
She is one of a kind.
Im glad to have met her.
But oh well,
Complications, Restrictions and Changes.

I just miss her. Is all.

Chicka

2010-03-15T01:37:00.002+08:00

I first saw you at my bestest bud's friendster and decided I just had to know you.
I was thirteen.
You were the first girl I ever went for since starting high school.
And you're not even near my school.
I made an effort to know you from the net.
I was undoubtedly very lucky indeed when you gave it a chance to get to know me.
Lots of texts and chats then.
We shared quite alot.

It's now 6 years later,
And it's strange how I haven't really met you,
Except for a few lucky bumps into here and there,
And I feel like I know you well,
Its just Im not that lucky enough for a meet,
Despite all that,
I still waited for you, wooow
I amaze myself,
There's something in you that is so different that I really like,
You're so adorable it's killing me... :P

Then, you said you cant stand being with a guy for too long,
Scared the crap out of me,
HAHAHAHA,
You cease to make me smile with even the smallest gestures or things you do or say,

I reaaaally hope you'd give me a chance yeah,
Just one,
Only ONE,
Then you can ignore me if you think Im boring,
Please?
I wont bite,
I PROMISE! :) :) :)

Turn Around

2010-02-12T05:06:00.002+08:00

The Awesome wing-man, double date agent, my half fly brother, RAEZ gave me the turn around today when I was on the phone with him just now...

After much ranting..... this is what he concluded :

RAEZ : Well brov, when she's famous one day soon. You can be the only asshole who can say you've slept with her! Damn, I wish I were you!

DAMN, the mofo's right. :)

On other news, he promised me a few dates when I'm back soon. SPM la idiot! Go and study!

Screw it.

ELEKTRA! Nopee, just ERIKA! :)

2010-02-08T00:58:00.005+08:00

HI! Its been quite a while ey?? My fb cacat la, I just deleted some friends and BOOM! A lot kinda went lost... Tak perasan wei!! SORRY la... :)

Anyway Im in love! I ada BUAH HATI! :)
Nama dia ERIKA! You can call her MISS Erika!
And yes, she came all the way to see me! Not like you! and you! eh eh, you too!
Haha no biggie la....

You dont know what it feels like to see someone familliar waking you up okay, dengan manjanya! After what it feels like forever since I've seen familliar faces! :)

So YEAH! We fell in love today... After endless talk of updating each other and how stuffs have been awesome and shitsnitz... Saya dilamun cintaaa!! Haha poyooo!

One thing I really love about Erika : Her very very caring nature and of course she meant it when she said she'd be there for me regardless.... I've heard a lot of that but never really seen it in action... Haha words words words, people shold stop misusing them! :P

And of course, there's thousands of stuffs I love abt her but dunno where to start! But yeah, I really like how she'd stop what she's up to to talk to me if I was in trouble... I dont expect any "Eh Im busy, I'll talk to you later" and call back the next day with her.. DAYMM! Haha she always say "Heeyy you, give me 2 secs ey"... Although its actually 2mins, but yeah! Our hours of talks are just priceless eh?

Too bad come my prom she was in Perth. :(
But we had fun study sessions eh? And also watching Talentime! :) :) :)
OH YEAH! She helped me changed my truck tyres when got this loser punctured it! :) :)
She knows tools okay! Extraordinary girl, man! :) :) :)

And nope, you guys dont know her! That's the best part! Haha you cant talk bad abt her! :P

I LOVE YOU ERIKAAAA!!!!! And I'm watching you, making my hot choc + marshmellow in the kitchen waiting to use my laptop! haha

and yeah, this is a dangerous love affair. :P

:) :) :)

12.33pm-KL 4.33am-London

2010-01-16T12:31:00.002+08:00

COD2 : Modern Warfare... I blame that game for the time Im sleeping right now..

I got good news from THE Nabila today! Hell yeah, I've a Valentine's day date with my best friend. You're gonna fall for me, nabs.. I'm warning ya. ;)

Just did my routine calls around everyone... You are definitely not worth saving for the last call..

Be careful yeah, your culture shock changed all your principals
As much as I regard you highly, I'm now utterly disgusted yo
You're easily distracted, I just hope it wouldn't ruin you this time yeah

Remember what you went there for, that's all Im saying...

Words of wisdom for this week:
When things fall apart, the clown will run away and the one who's there in the first place is.....gone

Think about it yo ;)

Dua ribu sepuluh!

2010-01-13T00:59:00.002+08:00

I quote Ashley Spencer :

"You're too perverted to be an asian, you know"

I quote the perverted asian :

"Well, prepared to be surprised, love"

HAHA lovin it. :)

4.37am

2009-12-24T01:08:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why am I doing this to myself

How can I be in this position in the first place

You obviously didn't care about me like how you used to

And I miss how you did

Because you gave me the world

Cant help thinking that you were just trying get something from me

How could you?

Were you faking everything?

It all felt so real

All those words you spoke

All those promises you made

All those hope you gave me

All the love you comfort me with

It all just seem so clear now

When everything's over

You got what you wanted

I'm left alone

You don't even care what's about to happen

Congratulations I must say

You really had me

I put you on top of everything else

Even when I've realized all this

I still hope for you

How did you do it

I cant hate you

Because I'm thinking its okay for me to get hurt

I dont want you to get hurt

Even after all those things you did

It's best that you don't even try and contact me again

I don't think you will anyway

For you, I may just be another person that come and go

But to me

You're the sweetest memory I ever had

And it remains

Only as memories

Now I have to get over you

And it's so hard

I cant even delete your texts

God help me through this...............

3.48am - I'm still thinking of you

2009-12-24T01:04:00.001+08:00

I dont really know love
I didnt know it would come to me like this
My heart doesnt act like it wants to in front of my love

If I knew I was going to be like this,
I wouldn’t have started in the first place
Like a fool, I am regretting this late

I wished that you wouldnt be my love
I wished that it wouldnt be you
You deceited me, telling me that its not love

I hoped that it would be a passing by fate
Because painful wounds will be left on me
But even when I know this, I am still greedy
It keeps getting me sad

I thought that it was a wrong start
I thought so easily
I believed that I could always call you

What should I do?
Where did it go wrong?
I need to avoid this love
But I yearn for everything about you

I wished that you wouldnt be my love
I wished that it wouldnt be you
You deceited me, telling me that its not love

I hoped that it would be a passing by fate
Because painful wounds will be left on me
But even when I know this, I am still greedy
It keeps getting me sad

Now if its not you, there is no meaning to anything
I can’t contain myself anymore
The fact that I have to erase you
Today again,

It makes it even more hard..

Fucked Up

2009-12-20T18:36:00.011+08:00

I didnt mean to be rude to you

But it's the only way to make you hate me

When you hate me, it'll be much easier for me to forget all about you

And it'll be much easier for you to forget all the nice things I did for you

I want to have a proper goodbye with you

But I'm afraid I won't let go of your hands if I do

I'm afraid you'd ask me to stay

But I so badly want to hear you ask me to stay

Because I will

Still I have to go, to stop hurting myself

I wanted so much to tell you everything

But I realized real life isn't movies where everything becomes okay in the end

And I'm afraid you'd hate me for it

I wish I didn't get close to you in the first place

I wish I didn't fall for you that night

I wish I didn't have to go

What am I joking

Of course you'll be fine by yourself

It doesn't make a difference if I'm not around anyway

But you should know

Your absence will make all the difference in my life

I'm sorry I have to go

I wanna call you but you currently hate me now

Let's leave it like that

And pretend I never existed

It's for the best

I love you

But you'll never know it

I'm sorry I cant tell you

So take of yourself

Goodbye.........

Taldellic

2009-12-19T20:14:00.001+08:00

It Hurts

............so much

Chikas, lo siento.

2009-12-06T12:29:00.002+08:00

I know you're reading this although you try avoiding.

I'm just gonna say

I'm Sorry.
To all three of you.

I understand if you're gonna avoid me and all
But understand that I don't regard you any different.
Nothing changes.
Not the slightest bit.

I hope we'd still hang out when I finish later okay.
I really do wanna talk to y'all.

So gimme a call yeah. :)

Goon

2009-10-29T09:37:00.006+08:00

Because you're so dumb, I give you this:

And while you won't be getting this from me anymore

I suggest you try this book when you're lusting over me

I told you, you're not gonna like it.
Something you're gonna have to live with.

Hiatus

2009-10-27T19:07:00.005+08:00

People say music expresses someone's wellbeing everytime.
All I've been listening to lately

Frankie J - Don't Wanna Try

Yeah, you can only imagine. And all this must happen this time around, cant it wait until I finish SPM maybe?

I didn't know this was the price for just being nice all the time.

Truth be told, I was used, dunno how I was stupid enough to be though.
Yeah, I know it's hard to believe, I out of all the people.

Maybe a change is necessary after all.

I'm going back to my old ways.

You might not like it.

Senior Prom

2009-10-11T11:51:00.009+08:00

If you love me, shut up and come.

For more mofos, I mean infos,
Go visit:
Facebook Event
Prom Blog
Or you can just gimme a call

Tickets selling out fast yo,
so move them asses!

Screw it....

Phantom Regiment 2009 Programme 123

2009-10-10T13:51:00.001+08:00

You went too much when you flattened my tyres.
Thanks actually, I had a great time changing the tyres with Erika.
It ain't gonna bring me down.

You had your turn.
You should've just stick to blackmailing because...

Now I show you what I can do
It's my turn.

Changi, Singapore

2009-10-07T23:23:00.014+08:00

It was unplanned, what can I say.

Arrived at the airport only to know that the psychotic ex-girlfriend is coming along.

Nonetheless, she looked pretty good.

Dont worry people, I am bringing my books along!
And my special apologies to Erika for not telling you earlier, we'll go for breakfast first thing when I get back wokay? Loveeees ya!

Ciao!
Screw it..

New Degree Of Hotness

2009-09-15T14:11:00.008+08:00

I received a random phone call from RAEZ one ass day while I was cramming my head on whats that animal called? Chemistry? yeah!
Anyway if this mofo called, I knew it couldn't be for nothing else....
And it was true, wing for a double date...

I was really hesitant seeing it was Ramadhan and whats that shit called? Trials? yeah! but he got me interested with what I call
A New Degree Of Hotness...

"DUDEE! You gotta tag along, if she is already fine, imagine the sister!! And since when did you start rejecting double dates??"

"It's fasting month you dick! and besides, I have my trials..."

"Hahahaha.... yo, you're actually studying?? The only reading material I ever see YOU holding is a damn magazine!"

"Screw you, dumbass! I ain't going and actually I already have enough on my plate :)"

"Then get another plate! Or change it to a bowl! Dudee, I'm telling ya, she is so freaking hot that my zippers opened by itself man when i saw her!!"

"Ooooh, that's new. No promises on the outcome aites"

So yeah, I wing-ed him on his date.
True! She's smoking out of this world hot, but sorry to break it out to ya Raez, she kept looking at me I've no idea why..
There's also a random number miss calling me since that night.
And you know I can't help it sometimes right..
So thanks.... haha

Join me in the last hurrah!

2009-08-26T12:56:00.004+08:00

I was forced to spend time with "the" opposite sex on the last day of school last week.
Yeah it sucks, but as things lead on, I told myself

"Damn, her guy is really really undoubtedly lucky to have her"

Haha yeah, its not just anyone, it's "her"
Abang said get another to get over her.
I do have one and took another 3 at one time but yeah, didn't work. :P

See I got a theory,

"If ever ONCE you have feelings for someone, the feeling will never fade away"

WTF?! haha
Ah damn it, this is what happens when you're hungry and you force yourself to study..
So join me in the last hurrah!

And don't stop Rocking On!

Screw it.

"Fird! In, on your left!!"

2009-08-09T18:22:00.004+08:00

That was the last words of jefry before some ass OVER TOOK me... WHAT THE HELL?!?!

Round 1 : Champion

Round 2 : Champion

Round 3 : 2nd Place?

WOOOOH... I just can't believe I was overtook at the 2nd last lap before victory.... Although I still win overall after winning 2 rounds but still wei..... I was pissed with myself and that mofo ass who overtook me that I didn't bother asking who went ahead....

So yeah, after that went capsquare for the treat... Crazy as ever until a girl approached me which I thought was one of the dickhead's girlfriend....

C cups : Hey, thanks for tonight. Had a good time.

Fird : Hey, no problem. New around here?

C cups : Yes actually. So unfortunate on the 3rd round wasn't it?

Fird : Yeah. I didn't know how that happened. Lucky him.

C cups : *giggles madly*.... You mean, lucky ME.

Fird : *WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?*

So yeah, apparently that mofo ass which I thought was one of the dickheads is actually a girl...
I'm still in denial...

finally had some good time...
90 days!!!!
screw it...

St. John's Institution Drama Team 2009

2009-08-01T21:34:00.007+08:00

If you were to ask me for one word to describe the 2009 drama team, I can't give you but what I can give you is this....

PERFECTION

I can never find any other team more perfect than what i have this year.... I neglected a lot of things for drama.. My cadets, partially prefects, jmc challenge 09, the yakuzas, studies and mischievous.... and you know what, IT WAS MORE THAN WORTH IT.....

What I had experienced in drama this year was the most valuable experience I could ever have in high school... I had the chance to work with 15 most responsible, funny, serious, talented team members this year... And they were all too perfect and too awesome.

What happens if you trap myself + Sarveen + Pavindran + Ritesh + Govind + Nasril + Edward + Yap Calvin + Johann + Woo + Schanny + Kok Huah + Brandon + Ravin + Hariz + Charanjit + Izaaz together in one small room with no food and no GIRLS?

WE WILL SURVIVE I TELL YOU

We faced a lot of shit this year but out of nowhere, everyone pulled themselves together and we were glorious. Why? Because we were TOO close to each other. The bond that we have was so strong that nothing could break it, even girls... haha but its true, its hard for me to say "I Love You" to a guy but because of drama I told 15 guys straight in the eyes that I love them although I'm not sure I looked yap in the eyes or not la... :P

But it was sad to see that our journey that was destined to end in Penang, ended in KL... Months and months of hardwork endured by us was spoilt easily by 5 amateur, naive, stupid, unprofessional judges... Despite all that, we were recognised as the true champions this year... I myself has lost count how many people that said we were supposed to win and that the judging was very very misleading...

We won and we are champions, you know why?
-We put fear in VI and their teachers right after our magnificent performance
-We were recognised as winners from other school teachers
-We endured many challenges for zone and state but we put out a good show in the end
-We got on stage as a family of professonal actors and not participating students
-Everyone was afraid and terrified of SJI drama team

As this is my last year, I was crushed, upset and angry for the results. When the results was announced, I felt blank and dead, I was in denial, I actually refused to go on stage to receive the prize. I had a hard time acknowledging the fact that SHIT HAPPENS but I knew I had to get over it. The only reason I felt sad was because I know I can't see those 15 that frequent anymore, I know that there are not going to be any drama practices anymore....

I'll miss
-all those RAPINGS!
-MUNIRAH! NASRIL!
-Ritesh's tits
-Yap's Yellow!
-Woo's shout of Penang! Penang!
-Woo's shout of "Razif!"
-Brandon's hyperactivity
-Brandon's "ZAAAAP!"
-Brandon's sharp tits
-the drama anthem, "KANTOI"
-DMG!
-Johann's words of "fird, jom chocolate!"
-Johann's gigolo dance
-Nasril's "Wei, tetek aku petak tak?" or "Wei, aku buff tak?"

I can still laugh at all these memories but still a bit sad to know that everything's ended.

I'm still not over all this issue, the only time I can put a smile on my face at school for the past week is only when I see the drama boys and Puan Arnie or Miss E. Other than that, I really really feel blank, or rather empty and sad. Yeah I appreciate everyone's concern and your advices of "You must get over this" or Puan Siti's "Now, you just concentrate on SPM okay?"
No one will ever understand what I'm feeling except for the drama team and teacher advisors.

I will be okay soon but for the mean time I am getting over it.. And it's not easy when you see ducktapes around your room, scripts in your bag, 'taking back my love' on the radio and drama presets on your laptop.

This is harder than I thought it will be but as the title says

"THE SHOW MUST GO ON"

and it did, the show WENT on, it never ended. As long as everyone's around, the show NEVER ends and it never will...

Everything that happened this year was made possible by the help of the drama team's favourite, most beloved teacher advisor, Puan Arnie Shazleen... and was later helped by Miss Elina.... Although puan Arnie always had to go back early but she really took good care of us and supported us all along in whatever decision we did. I don't think any of this year's success would be possible without her everlasting support. She treated us like how she treats her own children and teacher is you're reading this,

"We are very happy to have you as our drama teacher! We all love you!"

And also to an old boy that I really respect even when I was in form 3, I never would gave imagined that I would get this close to him. When I was a damn form 3 in Langkawi, the first time he really spoke to me was when he asked me to hold his drama file for him in Langkawi and told me "Hold this, I'll look for you for the file okay".... In a way, I was honoured and happy because he spoke to me directly as other times, he would just focus on the actors.. I felt so bangga that he trusted me with the file... At the end of the journey of 2007, he told me that he promised me that if there was any reason to come back in 2009 is because of me and here he is this year helping us to where we are right now..... Although he is indeed 4 years older than me, I've always looked up to him as the elder brother but it is just so amazing that he treated me like his own friend even in Langkawi.... And I feel so lucky to have known him earlier and had the chance to work with him for 3 straight years..... He is 2005 Best Actor, "Ravinderan Rajalingam"

Back in langkawi 2007, I was so close to him to the part where usually there are 2 tables of 10 when we have dinner, One table will always be the great guys, the main actors, izzat, marvin, jon, andrew, him and teachers. But on the 3rd night, when I sat on the 2nd table as usual with the form 4's and all, I was really shocked that he and jon said, "hey baby! what you doing there? Come, sit beside us". It feels like being called to the 'cool table' you know. And as a new fresh dumbass form 3, it was really a milestone when they asked me to join them but in the end as i was already eating I said I'd just stay at the current table... It was just a pleasure and honour knowing him... Only one thing that I haven't achieved yet, I really really wish someday I could have the chance to ACT with him. I had the feeling the other day when he replaced yap as the doctor and it was just awesome.... I wish I could have the chance to act with him one day, one day.....

St. John's Drama Team 2009

My Buddies . My Friends . My Family

i'll upload a lot of pics soon aite!
Screw it........!!!

Greatest Birthday Present

2009-07-15T19:12:00.003+08:00

And the first place for english drama competition zon keramat goes to.....

SCHOOL NO....... 5!!!

The atmosphere was electric...
The feeling was just undescribable...
Will come back for this...

Some things just have to be posted you know.. :P

Screw it

Right? Wrong?

2009-06-30T22:49:00.006+08:00

GOING 85KM/H WITHOUT A FASTENED HELMET AND JUMSUIT ON A SHARP CHICANE IS A TERRIBLE AND STUPID THING SOMEONE COULD EVER DO...

BUT IT SEEMED LIKE THE RIGHT THING TO DO AT THAT POINT...

I CANT FACE ANOTHER ONE OF 'THESE' DAYS ANYMORE

I'm terrified of the things I would do just to get some peace of mind....

the day i was iskandar

2009-06-12T19:48:00.007+08:00

ALRIGHT! So here's the thing.. My display name in msn has been iskandar from yesterday and many are asking why... For some, yeah i did tell you the history behind it... haha then i just got tired repeating to the others so....

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED!

I had lunch at starbucks with nette...haha yeah lunch at starbucks,
well anyway after finished lunch she went back and I figured I could use another choc frap so I went and get one...

After paying I waited for my drink until I notice there's someone was looking at me, okay I mean STARING at me...

No, I'm not being perasan, I can just sense if someone is looking at me..
haha so I turned to check out who it is then it's true! A girl was looking at me like she already knew me and she was smiling, so I being the FRIENDLY person that I am smiled back la...

Suddenly she starts walking towards me and I'm thinking

"Shit! I don't remember this girl.. Where have I seen her before.. Damn, who is she?!"

So then she came to me and.....

"ISKANDAR!"

I looked her up and down... She had curves and was still "ON!" and I said...

"Hey you! Primary school right?!"

"YEAH! OMG! It's been so so long!"

HAHAHAHA So as a result to my reaction I ended up spending the whole evening with her as
"ISKANDAR"

So yeah but I kept getting close to being busted when I forgot I was Iskandar and the convo went like this...

"Iskandar, Iskandar, I never knew I'd meet you again"

"Who?"

Yeahh but then could cover up la... I did take her number though promised that I'd call her back, felt kinda bad la bcos despite the hot curves, she was still very very nice....

Sofya..... Sofya..... Sofya...

I wonder if I should call her and tell her the truth?
Haha what do YOU think?
I think I'm gonna start a poll...

Screw it....

Exams?

2009-05-23T16:56:00.004+08:00

Exams are over... hell yeah!! Still have one week of school though before semester break... nak datang ke tak???

Anyway today we will be talking about a person we will either hate the most or love the most....
TEACHERS!!! hahaha well since it's teacher's day kan... why not?

Well one thing for sure after all these years of school, Good and fun teachers never stay for long... They'll either get married, get promoted, get pregnant or reitre :S haha
From primary school, I got the chance to be a student of some few awesome teachers... especially english...maybe that's the reason I can speak quite well since it's not my mothertounge...

But really maybe u realize it, maybe u dont, but teachers play a very important role in your studies, they can either make u hate a subject or simply just looooove a subject... I once hate physics and add maths until i got some rocking teacher teaching me the subjects...

Point is, teachers like these that we really need are the hardest to find. Some teachers are very good because of years of experience, some teachers are experienced but are not that good... People just assume that because they're experienced, they're good..haha what a joke...

I know a teacher who was new.... and she is GOOD, I mean seriously, she looks like she's been teaching for years... She had her own way of teaching us, full of love and games...hahaha baby games? but still, never have i seen my class passing up books on time, cant wait for her classes, behaving during eng periods.... She's really soft spoken, kind, loving and everyone loved her because she taught us with full of love man!!! I can still remember how she calls the whole class "studentssss..." Semua cair kot! haha but as I said, good teachers never stay for long... This year, she wasn't assigned to teach us again and instead, a monster came... haha :P

We always overlook teachers you know, when we leave school and all, they must always be remembered, i hope i can.... Just think of it this way, you rant about going to school early in the morning to study and all, but one day you'll finish school eventually, while they? They do all that for a living, wake early and go to school and stuff... So the point is, although how bad a teacher may be, just appreciate them just because they're simply teachers..

Mind you, it is NOT easy....In fact, how many of you asses want to become a teacher?
Sya jadi cikgu? pfft lawaknye!! joe? mmg joke of the year! maya? sexy teacher?? haha

Secara kesimpulannya,
HAPPY TEACHER's DAY! to all the teachers!!! if u ever find this blog anyway, which i highly doubt! :P

Screw it...

lembus part 2

2009-05-06T18:12:00.009+08:00

Yeah its that obvious I ran out of title for this post....

I took this time to blog about how school is damn anoyying. Damn workload.
Know what, some teachers should really ask ur permission before they start using you...
Ni tak, for all u know one note came to you

"Firdaus, please write this crap long essay and submit before blabla"

"I have submitted ur name for this that competition, be ready. TQ"

"Please help me send this blabla to blabla"

"Firdaus, please leave a copy of this blabla list that happened a MONTH ago" [okay, this one was a bit edited :P]

But the good ones are...

"See me tomorrow" [Shit, I'm in trouble] haha

"This is your week's worth of homework"[Voted the best!]

They should really think if this student got lots to do ke or he has something important to do ke or he has DAMN SPM to study for ke... hahaha yeah, study siot!

Worst part, teachers that are WORTH helping rarely ask for help... nor teach you.. :(

I leave you with a picture to ponder on....

That's right fellas! This is no super imposed pic or anything...
Yes, it is me! In songkok, reciting the doa!
not something ur used to see?? hahaha

screw it!

lembus!

2009-04-29T17:42:00.009+08:00

Gah! Thanks to mischievous! I had a blast!
Such a cliche isn't it?

Rain . Scool uniform . Plastic Bags . Ice-cream . Walk . Kuala Lumpur

Reminds me of our first 'date' ain't it? Well I dunno what else to say but I reaaalllly had fun and I appreciate what you did today.

Many have start calling me up and stuff and to my surprise kittykat! called me all the way from perth! Goyang bontot i suppose? :P

I can assure you that I'm fine... Serious! It's just I'm having one of the teenage anoyying problem thing going on but I'm really hoping that it'll be over....soon!

The 'she' is just another 'she' alright. Either you understand it or you dont. :P
As best as i can, I'm trying to forget all about her, trying to ignore her and stuff but all of you know that it ain't easy yeah. It'll take a lot of time so yeah! Screw it...

Anyways I appreciate what everyone's done yeah. From that crazy outing to another baking session with maya to crazy skyping to that late night to feeding me with chicks!
Just so you know, this maybe the one time I'm gonna write it here...

I L.o.v.e all of you asses! :)

Maya.Joe.Sya.Melissa.Ween.Lyn.Farra.Adam.Flip.Ija.Hani!

Penat siot!
Screw it tetap screw it! :P

do u knw that damn blogger takes almost half the time i shit to upload a damn pic so if u wanna see all our wild pics... go look at my devianart aite suckers!

Pain

2009-04-14T17:15:00.007+08:00

Why do you have to love someone and be sorry?

"I Love you, and I'm sorry I do"

I dare you to face that

lament

2009-03-26T19:56:00.011+08:00

Believe it or not, I have wanted to lament for a long time but never actually had the chance.
Yeah, I'm that preoccupied.
Today I managed to come home early, although eyes were shut, I was lamenting.

It's not fair that only I have this feeling
Stuck in this situation
No where to go
It's too complicated that I'm afraid to even open up
So I stay closed
Trying to find answers on why am i stuck here
Until i asked myself "What have I done wrong?"

I got all the answers after that
Damn it....
I shouldn't have
I shouldn't have
I shouldn't have
I shouldn't have
I knew that all my wrongdoings won't go unpunished
Little did i know that this is the punishment

What can i do to make it all better?
I really can't stand it anymore
You shoud've told me you were gonna do this to me when i first saw you
Now its all coming back to me

I've feelings with someone I know I'm not supposed to
And I've got so close to the point of there's no turning back
Exit doors are shut
I'm banging on it to break it open
But it won't
Stay close and I'll suffer every second spent acknowledging the truth
And the truth? Is that nothing will happen
Stay away and I'll suffer to see her alone
Stay away and I'll suffer to....
not answering her calls
not answering her texts
avoid her eyes
avoid bumping into her
How am I suppose to do all that when the first thing in mind when i wake up is her?
So what should i do????
Either choice ends up with me suffering

You know you're in love when...
-you expect her on your phone every time it rings
-you expect her on your phone when you receive a text
-you slip down the stairs staring at her
-you'd wake up early, study hard, ditch ur mates just for her
-you go crazy just for her attention
-your mind wonders on how beautiful she is when you talk to her
-She's the first thing on your mind when you wake up
-you mispelled some words to her name
-you keep spotting her name everywhere from tv producers, book authors, wedding invitations, billboards....and so on....

But I know that how much I lament
Nothing will change
Only maybe time will tell
While I stay here, no where to go, no where to hide
I have 9 months left to the ending of this
I wonder what will happen to me after that
Knowing she'll have someone new
Knowing I can't be looking forward to see her anymore
Knowing I won't be in her mind as how she will always be in mine....

Don't hurt others
Because the price is something that you can't pay although how strong you are.
Sorry.

Of 14th february and insanity

2009-02-17T19:52:00.003+08:00

SO! Valentine's Day huh? haha yeap where shall i start?

okay.. here goes...

Dear Mischievous,

I thank you again for a very wonderful yet suspenseful yet awesome yet amazing night ey?

Why do i feel that every time spent with you is just worth remembring? Just cant forget about it la. I turn everywhere and i will surely remember something about the night.

-I saw an ice cream truck :P
-I saw the thing in the first row of 7-11! :P
-All my music player's playing future sex/love sound :P
-I went pass La Senza :P
-I keep spotting the word 'doggy' and 'BICYCLE!' :P
-I walked through Jalan Raja Chulan :P

Haha i strongly feel that you are having the same thing as i am?? :P
Well, we BLAME stupird chris brown don't we?
We could've spent a SAFE and HARMLESS night.
But instead!

White roses . TGI's . Spontaneous . Romantic . Jalan Raja Chulan . Dancefloor . WILD!

Oh yeah!!! Well, you're just getting mischiever by the minute aren't you?!

xoxo,
mischief!

If im up to it, yeah i'll say something about forensics and farah's 17.... what?! i cant? too obscene?!?!

Abang's counting down.. :P
Screw it....

Some Things Just Have To Be Blogged!

2009-02-08T13:54:00.005+08:00

Thats right! Im just here to tell you what i learnt on friday... Oh wait, i skipped classes on friday... So THURSDAY! I swear to god its the first thing i learnt from EST lesson by THE awesome:

TEACHER SC! :)

She was teaching about how unhealthy instant frozen burger is so i was curious: who haven't eaten a burger in their life so i enquired! :P

FD : Teacher! Then you've never eaten a burger in ur whole life is it?

Teacher: Yes, Of course. Before i did, but now i make my own burgers.

FD : Huh?! How do you make your own burgers la teacher?

(She comes close to my table to explain)

Teacher: Oh very easy.... You buy a whole chicken. Cut out the BREAST part. And you make it ROUND

(I swear to god she was smiling as i couldn't tahan anymore)

FD : REALLY?! (merely laughing)

Teacher: Yes. Why are you laughing?

FD : I love EST, teacher! :P

HAHAHAHA thats right mates!
You SEE!!! I dont flirt with teachers! Teachers flirt with me!
Knowing me, you dont expect me to resist that would you?!

Damn week.
Screw it....

what are the odds 2 person tagged you in the same shit?

2009-02-02T02:48:00.007+08:00

Rules:
Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you

1. I dont know how i agreed to do this tag bcos i just dont bother other times

2. Whats up with people assuming that i have a girlfriend? so what if i have?

3. In my mind, women are always naked... (most of em anyway) :P

4. I can do wonders on the phone... thats right! ;)

5. I dont like parties and partying... hahahaha serious shit :P

6. I strongly believe on the fact that age is just a number... yeah!

7. Kisses doesnt mean much to me... i blame my worst sin: LUST

8. Stronger self-control is the one thing i hope i could have

9. My goal is to stay away from the things that im not supposed to do. (i have failed to do so) :P

10. I have hurt many hearts. And i swore i dont mean any of them.

11. If i could turn back time, I'd still be friends with a few awesome people.

12. What goes around, comes around.... dont ever mock people, why do u think im on braces?

13. People say i always get what i want, well its sad that i cant have the one thing i really want the most

14. Family is my upmost priority. You hurt my family, i make you suffer.

15. Never would i thought i'd stay in St. John's until form 5.

16. I prefer travelling alone, it resembles adventure and coolness... also i have all the time to myself........to check out the stewardess!! :P

17. In my room, there are a stack of FHM's that you will NEVER find! :P

18. I AM a sweet tooth.

19. I could choose to be a race driver prefessionally if it wasnt for my passion over aviation

20. I hate it when people think that i cant speak malay, HEY! its my mother tounge! And i grow up according to proper MALAY culture... bangga siot!!

21. Small and cute's my thing although hot and sexy are always the ones i go for... :P

22. I admit Maya is the best! she makes awesome-est choc-filled cupcakes that i lovess!! Im gonna invest in opening her bakery some day

23. I cool down and melt when i get ice-cream, donuts, cupcakes!, cakes, muffins, all these pastry stuff la

24. Most of you dont know, haha thats what this is for.....I am a pre-mature baby.

25. You never know if im mocking you even when im smiling... so SMILE asses!! :D

NOW, i tag those who have read this. Yeah! i mean YOU! i wanna know 25 nonsense about you!
I blame this tag to melissa and gina... except melissa's was 16, not 25 but what the hell la...

Hectic February!
Screw it...

Work lead me to her

2008-12-14T02:15:00.006+08:00

PCC annual dinner ball was the bomb... I'm gonna be mysterious and tell you about the highlight of the night, the most most amazing most awesome most out of my mind thing that happened....

Scene 1 starts

F : *talks to himself while watching her enter the hall*.....Damn she's looking smoking hot, Fcuk, she's leaving for japan soon.... *melts*

Mr F walks away with his mind fantasizing on her and resuming duty

Scene 1 finishes

Scene 2 starts

Everyone was around socializing while the jazz singer was at the front, Mr F was leaning at the open bar staring into spaces UNTIL she walks towards him with a smile

H T: *giggles* heard you're the man behind tonight...

F : heard you're leaving me for japan...(maintaining so-called macho in a very flirtacious tone)

H T: *smiles* Well since i lost my no.1 fan, i wasn't left with much choices am i? *smiles*

F : hah! really?! *grabs his phone and showed her 'indah' on his phone playlist*...u still think so?

H T : *amazed look with smile* Thats the first time my music's on a phone rather than my own....

F : Told ya... So does that means you're not leaving for japan?

H T : Awww you give me every reason not to haha but u know its just something i have to do....
Ey wait.... *smiles then laugh* you really got me in the mood, i forgot who i was talking to.

F : ohh well.... *stares while hurting inside*

H T : wow, you really dont want me to go... i never figured... come on, u should be happy for me..

F : Hah i am happy... Its just... i dont want you to fall for a japanese guy, they're blergh!

H T : *laugghhs* awwww you know the main reason im there right... *laughs* besides, I will be
waiting for you.... *stares naughtily*

F : *laughs* im not sure i can wait though *laughs*

H T : So dont blame me then...*laughs*.....

Mr F was thinking hard of how to get the conversation going until he saw the people on the dance floor all nice and intimate...

F : * Damn! should i ask her or not??! ohh fuck!!! what if she says no?! I'll look like an idiot...
Well, she has been obliging all night... ah wtf la!*

F : You know what would make me the most luckiest guy on the whole planet tonight?

H T : What?

F : If you, hannah, would care to dance with me... *panicked* but i totally understand if u dont
want to and i'd totally...

H T : I'd love to....

Walks over to the dance floor with her hands and danced.... It was the most meaningful 3 minutes plus plus of Mr F's life as all he did was stared at her beautiful eyes, gorgeous lips and beautiful face. It could've been more if the music was longer but it stopped..

Scene 2 finishes

Scene 3 starts

It was the end of the ball and everyone was making their move and Mr F was heartbroken because she was no where to be seen until nita came to him...

Nita : Eh firdaus, that lady u were steaming on tadi asked for you, she's at the foyer.....

F : Say no more....

Mr F runs to the foyer like he's never run before and saw her smiling then laughing when he was panting

H T: wow wow... relax, im going nowhere.. well i am making my move

F : Sorry didn't catch u inside just now.. Didnt see you

H T: *Smiles* Its okay, u see me now.... *smiles*

F: *smiles* You making a move?

H T: ohh yeah apparently, gotta wake early tomorrow.. another long day awaits

F : Oh then I just wanna wish you all the best in japan, hope you succeed in the industry and make sure i hear you all the way from here okay... *smiles*

H T: Of course! and thanks so much... I never know i have such young caring fans eh no no, admirers...*smiles*

F : Guess you won't be attending our ball again next year?

H T: *laughs* Well you might never know the things i'd do for you... You study smart okay and
take care of yourself, dont worry about me, i'm a big girl.....

F: *Stares like he never stared her before*

H T: Aww you..... *hugs him!*

F : *Felt like he's is cloud 9 and partly steaming!* I'll be in your website everyday!!! update okay

H T : *lets go of the hug* Know what, you can have my email ad, i can trust you with it right??

F: OF COURSE!!!!!

H T: *laughs* Its ***************.... Make sure u dont leave it lying around...

F : PROMISE!! Well.........bye hannah

H T: *Kiss goodbye then smiles* Bye firdaus...

Mr F was left while watching her walk out of the door with 'indah' playing in his mind and out of sight....

Scene 3 finishes

That was the most extravagant thing ever happened to me... Yes, H T is hannah sarah tan and F is well, yours truly...

Damn i miss her so damn badly already.... But what the hell!! i got her private email while the rest of you assholes still go to her website... :P

I'm sleepy....
Screw it...

Lunch hour never sound this busy

2008-11-26T14:01:00.003+08:00

Whats up fellas? I'm blogging from my workdesk, bcos everyone's out for lunch.
Biasa ah, the rest start work at damn 8.30.. As for me? freaking 12pm! haha I was at the tracks from 8 okay...so the PCC annual dinner is on lock.. Now all thats left is just 5th of dec... Lets see if my hardwork pays off or not... I'm quite worried about the turnout though.. but screw it la

As for now, I'm assigned to do auditing.. U knw, store data in computers bla bla bla...
Maya gave me a surprise visit yesterday bcos she was at pavillion.. I was about to blow bcos i told her not to come until i saw JCO on her hands... haha loves ya!

Until today, i got kena from pa twice bcos my music's too loud... i burst out laughing after that so now i'm on headphones and that's a problem too bcos I dont hear a thing when they call me... haha

I'm bored... Loving the pantry, Loving the people, Hating the damn workload...

Screw it....

Bloody Arse!!!

2008-11-21T01:30:00.004+08:00

Bloody hell man... I was in in S'pore for freaking 3 days and this much have happened?

What The F^&*?!

I am never leaving M'sia again wei... And supposedly, i have another trip soon... hahaha huhuhu
I was away for 3 days, 72 hours and got knws how many seconds and u knw what happened:

-Bloody JMC sent me a letter said i was accepted for next week's race when before they told me its ass-fully full!

-Syayira and Shahir got back together [Yeah whats up with that man?!]

- Pa shaved off his mustache :P

- Maya got bigger... at that part :P

-Mischievous just got mischiever!!

- Another girl proved me that girls do have baaaddd taste :(

Tension ah camni.... hah!
Anyway S'pore was fun... haha yeap it was wasn't it?
Pics? DvT la

Hols! busy siot!!!
Screw it....

Tention sial!!!

2008-11-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

I was seriously just about to go to sleep when i discovered something......
And I just have to blog about it...

GIRLS HAVE BAAADDDD TASTEEE!!!!
Some of 'em anyway
but STILL!!! BBBAAAADDDD TASSTEEEE!!!!

But DAMN man! Think ladies! Think!!! They are gonna be the father of your babies!!!
WHAT in the WORLD happened to girls weiiiii.... Tak boleh tido sial camni!!
TENTION AH!!!!

This is reallly EFFING bothering me weiii....
ARGHHARAGHHH!!!!!!!!!

"holla-ween"

2008-11-10T18:48:00.003+08:00

Right! to clear the air.... i DONT [i think] have a girlfriend... So i had a good day with a female, so what?! its not like YOU yeah i mean YOU have been neglected by me... asssss!!!

anyway! haloween! is...... messed up.. haha yeap had 3 costume/b'day party.. the whole idea of scaring isn't there anymore and that's supposed to be the main attraction. So since i'm one lazy ass who just wanna enjoy after exam stress... 2 of those party i went as bond and one as hitman.. haha almost la but without the bald

I met a lot of people i mean characters or vampires or whatnot but yeah it was fun especially Chee Wen's party :P.... haha i knoooow...

Apparently this is the last week of school and yeah, i think im attending all of em.. what im gonna do during or after school is to absolute discretion. haha but whatever it is, I think im gonna miss school though...

Spm's tomorrow so good luck all of the form fivers... Be very happy that your time is here bcos my time is yet to come and the pressure is killing me already...

Pics? surf DvA la...

Screw it...

.Only for you.

2008-10-21T15:52:00.011+08:00

Dear Mischievous,

Firstly i really owe this letter to you and i know that only you can read this! :P
I'm so so sorry that i was late for your special day yesterday... i dnt have to explain why bcos i obviously have made that clear. :P

To be honest, i didn't really thought i made yesterday possible. With critical thinking i stormed my mind to make yesterday happening! and i guess im not wrong in saying that we had a blast didn't we?

I never thought i'd have so much fun without a car in the streets of damansara, eating ice cream under the rain with you plus with plastic bags on our head. Not forgetting in our smelly school uniform.. :P

How were we high without any alcohol consumption eh? haha yeap yeap Yesterday was really awesomeeee wasnt it although we hit it off quite bad...

Hearts ya!
and sorry about the 12 thing... didnt mean it!

There you go! I hope you'll find this special enough and if ur wondering...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISCHIEVOUS!!!
well belated anyway...

yeap yeap.. i followed the treaty as we promised! :D

xoxo,
mischief!

Raya 08

2008-10-05T20:36:00.002+08:00

So raya 08' has been pretty much about family la.... yeah all about family family family
Dont get me wrong though, its been really good and fun... How many times in a year that u can actually get ur whole family together right?

Anyway my raya has been great... how was urs anyway?
And as u all know, my worst nitemare is here, someone anonymously tagged and the person tagged as one of my friends so its not cool yo...

so im gonna think about the possibilities of either getting this blog private and retain devianart or end this blog and retain devianart...

Tomorrow's school??? really??? :P

words of wisdom :P

2008-09-28T23:46:00.003+08:00

SO! I'm not gonna make this post long just to fill you in but i've got a few reminders based on what i've kinda err experienced so far...here goes!:

-When it gets dark, be careful who you dance with
-After the clock strikes 2am, nothing goes ur way so go to sleep!!!
- Dont try and flirt with strangers on the phone, although it works most of the time... You'll never know if its your teacher... :P
-Draw a line for a best friend
- Driving like a madman on the tracks WONT make ur problems go away... :P
- Next time you wanna hit on a girl, make sure she's not related to ya
- Be thankful with what you have
- Best things in life comes in small packages

Oh yeah!!! Take a few minutes and ponder on these advices yeah??? haha hell yeah!!
Raya's around the corner, good good, im broke :(

ADIOS!!

owwww, she's still very mischevious!

what's happenin yo?!

2008-09-10T15:53:00.002+08:00

ahh damn it, no idea what's happening to me... Slipknot? Avenged Sevenfold? MCR? The Used? The Hives? JT?

Yeah my usual tunes but I've been tuning to these lately and i've no idea why...

Reason for Breathing - Babyface
Endless Love - Mariah Carey feat. Luther Vandross
More than words - Frankie J
All out of Love - Air Supply
Ayu - VE (yeah! WTF right?)
No one else comes close- Joe
I'll be missing you -Babyface
Apa ertinya cinta - Melly Goeslow feat Ari Lasso
That Bryan Adams song dunno what

NOOoooOO I'm not emo or any shiznits but I just feel this songs and i even sing it during exams just now... especially whenn... :P :P

In other news, I'm trying not to relate ladies as a subject in my everyday presentation now :P
From my duet act with juen (not the screwed up one) to my english synopsis to my drill presentation... Haha ladies ladies and ladies

Anyway a loooong time ago before puasa, ween unleashed a very powerful/offensive/productive err compliment? kinda she said....

Ween : Eh if i tell you something kan, dont get mad tau.. Its just what I see

Fird : WHAT?! Something you see? I feel insecure now... :P

Ween : Serious laaaa

Fird : Kay la, go on...

Ween : I can never picture you in the future with only one partner even if ur married nanti. Eh, serious tau. Nampak macam awkward gila if you're stuck with one girl....

Fird : You ni memang dh takde kerja ah....

Jahat kan? haaa anyway that was just whats on top of my mind right now for a stupid update...
Nak buka luar la... Haven't had the chance to do so..

She's just too Mischievous!!!
She's just perfect!!!

Off One Night Only

2008-08-17T23:40:00.005+08:00

WOOOOOO!!
First up, HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY AMYYY!!!!
YOU ROCK!!!

I was bumming around untill i realized i was rocking at amy's sweet sixteen this time around yesterday....

She had the best party ever

Ladies+Food+Sports+Music+Swimming Pool+DJ+Bikinis+Boos

Damn man...
It's one of the parties that you can say proudly

'I WAS THERE'

HAHAHA although ur a plus sized at some parts bitch, I still love you BIG TIME AMY!!

Met lotsa people esp from the cheer community :P

Until last night, I didnt know coke could get you high...

Or....

Was it really coke? :P

Is it okay to get back with your ex whose suddenly hotttt?? =P

s-h-i-t-t-y

2008-08-11T19:15:00.004+08:00

Cant wait for hols...

Im still figuring out whats bugging me... feel damn shitty la

Probably I've put myself in a lot of s-h-i-t lately.... yeah, thats right

Lepak-ed with ween today and i just knew that I missed her quite bad, and also few other people...

Im tired

Screw it...

FirdausMonth

2008-07-10T21:43:00.002+08:00

Yeap its here... July is here although there's no public hols in july but somehow i just prefer july out of any other months... :P

Its just strange when im not blogging i've a lot to blog about but when im blogging, i forget everything... Exactly like chem or add maths formulaes when it comes to exams, you just go BLANK!

Anyway here's what i remember, all crap really but updates are in demand so yeah!

A discussion was made during bio class between Fahmi, Nas, Taufik and myself about a name for a band... Since we've no idea what teacher was crapping about we did this...

Cool Band Names:
-The Marasmus
-Over Starvations
-Kwashiorkorians
-The Scur-V!
-All Rickets
-High Mellitus
-Constipations
-Peristalsis

Yeap, in conclusion, all bio terms are cool for band names...
SMILE PEOPLE! :)

The other day Nas and I finally opened our anak laut book and was reading 'Menatap Wajahnya'....
We seriously thought it was porn and was freaking excited...

"Aku rindu pada senyum kasih cikguku, belaian lembutnya"

"Tetapi suaminya tidak mengizinkan kami berjumpa"

"Suami cikgu berpesan agar menjauhkan diri daripada aku"

"Segala keakraban kita tidak pernah cikgu lupakan"

STEAM SIOT! untilll...

"Aku sedar, aku hanyalah seorang gadis tempang"

Sumpah potong steam....
Anyhow we did read la, akthough a bit...
This story reminded me of.............

"Kisah Guru Matematikku, Cikgu Suraya"

Yang tu lagi steam siot.... HAHAHA

Turning 16 soon, and im still shortlisting the list of who i wanna bang that niight on the eve of the 13th....Have to be someone reeaaalllyy good... :D

Kak jojie's arriving this saturday and all hell breaks lose starts from monday next week... To those who doesnt know, she's getting married next week...

Now I'm tired sooo expect the following in my upcoming posts...

-JMC cart challenge
- Dania! (My future Sex/Love Chick)
-4th of July :P
-Fird the Perve :D

Screw it....

2008-06-24T23:25:00.003+08:00

sighness...I'm dead tired la
Barely have enought time to eat
I'm screwed...
all my fcuk explicit pics is with teacher...
and that's somehow hillarious.. :P

SCREW IT...

funniest shit all week

2008-06-02T01:22:00.002+08:00

Hahaha i hv read the funniest shit on the papers[yeah! i do read papers :P] like yesterday or last week i think and i read the funniest crap ever

Headlines!
GIRLS' SCHOOL UNIFORM IS SEXY AND IS A SOURCE OF ATTRACTIONreadhere

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Do they mean
-the one we've been using for god knows how many generations?
-the one my mom and my sisters wear to school?
-the one Maya and Syahira wears everyday?
-the one I've been looking at everyday?
-the one that covers practically every part of the body of girls?

Hahahaha i cant stop laughing bcos its freaking ridiculous!!!
I mean you should clearly at least conduct a survey first asking guys on it i mean personally, some things just dont go standing staring at that!!
Its not like its a tube, its a baju kurung and its covered!

Do guys really start steaming staring at girls' hand or something???

It is really a stupid matter bcos its a matter of lust and desire and not by white uniforms....Fine, u cant blame the girl if she's hot or something but dont go punish her by making them wear black uniforms....

AND there's a freaking reason its white....it is not heat absorbent....
If i was the edu minister I'd ask...
'So what do you suggest?'

-insert a title again-

2008-05-30T01:13:00.002+08:00

hols kinda suck though.... im getting broke man!
I need to start saving.... and budgeting and thinking...:P

Anyway today melissa and I found a very interesting describation(if there is such a word) of something....

'Its like a bicycle, if u ride it often then it could get easily wrecked and wont last long but if u ride it occasionally, it'll last a lifetime...'

Figure it out mates, i knw the guys will figure it out and somehow take it as an advice.... :P
Ladies, ask ur boyfriend's bout it ey....

-i broke my first 5a drumsticks :(-

-insert a title here-

2008-05-27T00:54:00.003+08:00

14days of holidays kiks off!!
Fun plans straight up!
Today was movies with the losers...i mean well.... :P
haha i had a very interesting convo with Maya just now....

(Johan was crazy staring at someone's mom at the other side of pizza hut)
Firdaus: F
Maya: M

F: Ey, dont you feel disturbed by that? ur boyfriend is all horny and stuff

M: Well, I dont really mind...

F: WHAT?! I'd take u as my girlfriend now.... really cool girlfriend la you

M: Haha sure.... Lets face it, I'd rather him staring that other than some teen bitch... Let him be happy staring at that whoever's mom it is...

Well she has a point doesn't she?? haha yeah well johan is one horny ass anyway.... In other news, Syazrina, one of my friends u wouldn't knw will be going holiday frenzy.... She's one lucky small girl ;)

just to pass time

2008-05-21T22:43:00.001+08:00

Today was alright i guess... i really miss staying back though, especially for drama... damn man, i'll never get over it

So now im back to my days of after school hangouts and movies blah blah...
Today started by meeting up with melissa at Weld, u really missed me ey? came all the way... Not only that, THANKS FOR THE CAKE!! I didnt really wanna eat but she got me with the famous secret recipe's choc banana cake.... hahaha to come and think of it, hadn't had a cake in a while, any sweet 16's coming up??

But yeah, guys im back... Sorry for all the times i blewed u off, cheer comp is coming soon, i wanna see ur staybacks pulak.... HAH!

Shite la, i still havent or just cant get over it...

i have a question for y'all though.
What's wrong in reading 'PS/ I Love you'?
FYI, I'm currently reading it and enjoying it so....
SCREW IT....

im smiling :)

2008-05-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

First, i just wanna say sorry to u guys... actually i've been at home the whole day, was no where out....
I just needed some alone time since yesterday...
Guess u heard about St John's drama right?? yeap, 2nd place and champions...

I've been thinking a lot about the difference if we got first... Even my last break up wasnt as worse as this.... I just miss my drama team....
Was all sad and depressed until i went to DK's(ravin) blog just now.....
I found this........

From DK's blog

Congrats boys. You guys made our Alma Mater Proud. You guys kept St John's Flag flying high above the sky. So what we weren't champions? we were 2nd best! We gave them a though fight to earn the title. At times we cant be keeping it all the time = ) . We give and take and now we gave next year we are taking it back.

Before I proceed further let me give you guys a brief history of KL SECONDARY SCHOOL ENGLISH DRAMA COMPETITION. Going back 6 years down the road.

Year 2004
Venue:- Muzium Negara Hall ( hosted by Victoria Institution)
Champions:- Convent Sentul
Runner ups:- Raja Abdulah
2nd runner ups:- Victoria Institution
Best Actor :- Sashideran (St John's Institution)

Year 2005
Venue:- SMK Convent Sentul Hall ( hosted by Convent Sentul)
Champions:- St John's Institution
Runner ups:- Victoria Institution
2nd runner ups:- Taman Connought
Best Actor:- Ravinderan Rajalingam ( St John's Institution)

Year 2006
Venue :- Muzium Negara Hall ( hosted by St John's Insitution)
Champions:- Wangsa Melawati
Runner up:- Victoria Institution
2nd runner up:- Convent Bukit Nanas
Best Actor : Jebbie (Convent Bukit Nanas)

Year 2007
Venue:- SMK Wangsa Melawati Hall ( hosted by Wangsa Melawati)Champions:- St John's Institution
Runner up:- Convent Sentul
2nd Runner up:- Wangsa Melawati
Best Actor:- Izzat Bin Fauzan ( St John's Institution)
Best Script:- Questionable Motives
everyone has a rent to pay ( St John's Institution)

Year 2008
Venue:- SMK Victoria ( hosted by Victoria Institution)
Champions:- Victoria Institution
Runner up:- St John's Institution
2nd Runner up:- Convent Sentul
Best Actor :- Isaac ( Victoria Institution)
Best Script:- The Picture everyone deserves a friend ( St John's Institution)

Do the Math. All About Johannians.
- In 4 Years 3 times top 2 schools in KL. ( 2005,2007,2008)
- Champions twice in 3 years ( 2005,2007)
- Won Best actor award twice in a row ( 2004,2005)
- 3 best actor awards in 4 years ( 2004,2005,2007)
- The only school that has won Best Script and as many as twice ( 2007,2008)
- Once they are Champions they win all awards that is up for grab( 2005,2007)
- The only School that has won all awards in a single competition ( 2005,2007)
- Even if the are not Champions they will at least bring back an award (2004,2008)
- The only school that has won at least an award in the competition (2004,2005,2007,2008)

Yesterday we created history. Every year we create history including 2006 ( 2006 badge should know why ). We are Johannians and we never say give up. I'm proud to be apart of your family. You guys are champions in my heart. And forever will. Remember this journey we went trough and never burn it out. More to come more things to be done. For what happen yesterday was nothing . I asked you guys for something but I dint get it instead i got more then what i wanted. You wanna know what I got?

KL BEST TEAM 2005
KL BEST ACTOR 2005
KL BEST TEAM 2007
KL BEST SCRIPT 2007
KL 2nd BEST TEAM 2008
KL BEST SCRIPT 2008

So yeah, after reading this, some how i feel all better, thanks a lot Ravin!...but i cant help thinking that the record would be nicer if we won this year though... Oh well, VI better have something good next year because St John's will be back....

-Fide et Labore-

what actually happened

2008-05-17T23:38:00.005+08:00

TRUTH BE TOLD.......

Lemme tell you what exactly happened just now la....
This was the conversation between the judges...

Judge 1: Wow now last to the final 2... St. John's of VI?

Judge 2: Urgh this is quite hard but i have to admit though St. John's looks more convinving with the effects and all

Judge 3: That's true, that's true with shadow flashbacks and creativity

Judge 4: But yeah, VI suits the theme though because its teacher's day isn't it?

Judges 2&3: Uhuh... so which one now.... St. John's or VI?

Chief Judge: I think we should give VI though because they took the liberty to host this

Judge 4: Yeah, with their nice teachers and all.... I think that's quite fair....

Chief Judge: So okay then VI 1st and 2nd St John's...

Judge 2: Pity there's no best team award though, St John's were in line for it..

All Judges: Yeah, IF ONLY there is....

So yeah, pure luck i suppose? HELL YEAH.....
They knew they need some extra luck to face us....defending champions...
Bulls will always be bulls i suppose....

ST. JOHN'S DRAMA TEAM ROCKS!

-and that's being modest yo-

what actually happened

2008-05-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

a tale of a hero

2008-05-11T15:31:00.002+08:00

YEAP! hah i've been into some heroic situations but this must be the-BEST one...

It happened like 10 mins ago so i just have to blog this.

There's this one hottie in my housing area which i see everytime i get back from school and i think she noticed me too la.... so anyway she has this bitchy/innocent/nerd/aggresive/lil gothic kinda look but damn is she hot....

So to day my mom forced me to go buy something at the nearby shop which i was so reluctant and i bumped into her, she was going the opposite way though but i gave her a smile which she didnt reply back....

Then on the way back, i bumped into her at the lorong to my house and i think she's marked bcos there was a few guys on car harassing her like u knw how la... So she kinda had to run and they were like chasing her to touch her or something and i stopped her and those guys went off la.... She was like fed up and kinda sad abt it so that's where everything starts....

Mind you, i never fell for a girl who stays close to my house and there's a lot of interactions to come.... This must be interesting....

B and still growing ;)

clashes...choices?

2008-04-29T23:42:00.003+08:00

God save Sharifah Mazreena or only known as WEEN!
haha yeap bcos!
today she fetched me from school and went to pavillion just to have J.CO!
haha yeah and the best part is she drives very safely now and it was all her treat!
My sister from another mother ey? yeah so thx for ur precious time ween
i really do appreciate everything so thanks!!

So things sucks now bcos my schedule is always packed and to make it worse,
it clashes! chee-byeee betul la

Duet act on eng week
or
District annual camp

Golf with father in law :P
or
Annual JMC carting challenge

Duet act on speech's day
or
KL Contingent annual camp

Play for CW's party
or
Movies with me bros and sis

Wake up early to company Shima to AAM
or
Wake up late and lazy my ass at home
or
Wake early for drama

I quote ritesh the beruang '2b/-2b:?'

I dare you to be me for a day....
See if u can stand it..
Screw it....

random nights

2008-04-27T00:20:00.008+08:00

what a screwed up night for the guys

im hungry

why the hell is everyone asleep?

why am i smelling strawberry + mint?

i feel like banging someone... dont we all??

oh yeah, now everyone has an african name:

!xodaus

!xohan

!xomaya

!xohira

!xohir

!xofaiz

!xoadam

!xolissa

!xotasha

nope....we're not related... maybe??? haha

screw it

today was fun....monday?

2008-04-21T18:39:00.013+08:00

Suprisingly today as in monday was fun...lemme tell u bout it ey

Today kicked off with me not having my usual probs to wake early to get to school to prepare for my duet act for english week....
So yeah i was freaking nervous thinking of it, i kept messing up the names during practice and my voice was trembling...
As the result juen my duet partner and I KICKED-ARSE!!
haha yeah we kicked ass man, my fear was all gone when the crowd started laughing... yeap yeap we ROCK!!

For one whole freaking day everyone was like, 'hey player!' and at the canteen
'aku segan la duduk dgn player ni'... haha and the teachers was also very very supportive...hmmmm haha

Then the day continued when i teman-ed maya balik sekolah and saw the olympics run across kl just now... we were so freaking mesmerized that we didnt realized it rained, haha then i followed maya to the nearest monorail which was the other way arnd... when we realized we were following the wrong way, we stopped running and just couldnt give a damn... but it was fun la wasnt it??
QUALITY TIME?? YEAH!! WETNESS!!!

Lesson learnt, 'Dont trust girls on directions' :P

LATER

Nabila Hassan

2008-04-17T22:48:00.005+08:00

HAH! This is something u'll be jealous for.... bahaha dont la people... This girl or 'CHICK' here is my bestestestest friend or as she would say it 'bestest best friend in the whole wide universal universe' haha yeap! she's as crazy as she sound..

Actually i wanted to post this in on her b'day on january but was too occupied la... sighness anyway! I'm guessin that u dont know her... hah then im telling you, y'all are so freaking UNLUCKY man.... Known her since standard one and we were in the same class for every single year unstil standard 6...

With her, I can always be Firdaus and not some other idiot.... totally comfortable around her... Well she's now in UWC, S'pore and im missing her badly... There's a lot of stuffs i wish we have time for like late nights, gigs and shisha and stuffs... However we still ROCK!! haha and to that whoever who'll ever get her one day, then he's one lucky bas#$%#.... haha bcos nabila is every guy's dreams :P...haha

And OH! if i ever decide i have to kill her... It gotta be bcos she spilled some of my dirt bcos she knows TOO MUCH! ey?

ALL in all, cheers to more of rocking friendship years to come yeah!!

NABILA ROCKS yo! ;)

Lembu's!

decency

2008-04-14T20:17:00.002+08:00

hey everyone... enough of the condemn la.... i was busy last week, i mean like seriously busy... comp season all kan, y'all know la...
Plus my internet screwed up last week.. sighness anyway my sister was back with kevin for the whole of last week... although its only a week, we ROCKED kevin's stay here... hah t'was fun

Last week was hectic but hey! SJI Drama Team got through state finals.. woo hoo!! yeah... i really hv to make time to blog i guess... there's a lot i wanna blog about...

-Ween's special post
-Post for nabs
-Drama post
-Kevin's stay
-Hannah's studio >33
-Mimi's party
-Melissa messed up my hair

So yeah i shall find time.... and oh, from now on, bcos of certain individuals who will be reading my blog... i SHALL mind my Language... :D

idiots

2008-03-27T21:43:00.003+08:00

fcuk! the world is full of idiots and lazyasses...
well i AM one but i know where and when to be one... Got lotsa crap to do, fcuking preoccupied... only the sight of her cups makes my day....everytime ;)
desperately in need of a night off :P

MAYA IS CONTAGIOUS!

C Cups!

2008-03-16T03:08:00.004+08:00

Okay to start this post i am fcuking HAPPY!! why??
I talked with colbie *hot* caillat just now!! hahaha yeah and its 3am and im still smiling, man.....
First, lemme tell u what happen for the barely week long hols..

-Well, it barely feels like a week
-I only got up late on monday and wednesday
-monday, my wall clock fcuked up and i thought it was still 8.30am.. was awoken by a screaming wake up call from shahir at 12.30 and the rest whom i was suppose to meet an hour before :P
-Tuesday went to school for drama, then messed up the empty capsquare cinema...that was awesome
-Wednesday had morning golf with pa and futsal with cousins...reunion sial then sambung reunion with another late night...
-Thursday worked on We-Mad, slept like fcuking late as usual... hope its done
-fRidaY!! Colbie Caillat!! i gotta thank Aisya for the tix, Adam for errm something i guess?? haha and Evon for the CD! My four buddies from kindergarden,y'all rock!!had a late night, enough said
-was hyped up for sunburst... it wasnt as fun as it sounds..well, at least thats what i think... i guess i dont really enjoy gigs with various artists, solo concerts would have been better...

So yeah, was bored and headed home at 10something.... was bored UNTILL i accidentally watched 8tv quickie at 12am....they had colbie in and was open for calls....i got lucky! of course there's that fcuked up guy who were like filtering our calls but hell yeah!!! i never wondered a voice like that belongs to someone that yeahhh.... so im tired, too much late nights la. what ever happened to my new year resolutions? haha... holidays are over, screw it....

one word says it all

2008-02-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

SO im gonna describe everything in one word... well i can try...
im currently more to deviantart so screw blogger..... since my last post:

Chinese new year was : noidea,wenttobali
Bali was : toplessbeach :P (figure out urself)
Choy's B'day party was: fcukingawesome
That fcuker in sports planet is a: fcukingsissy
Forensics was : awesome
ISKL is : heaven?
homework : im3daysbehind

so yeah thats it. choy gotta love me of bcos of her present. that fucker stays a fucker. forensics....my first year and got through semis, it was alright la.... st.john's was quite okay... the whole team rocks..

Today i went pass iskl and saw them warming up till behind the chinese embassy and was like...... arrived at school and was freaking depressed :P.... y'all are screwed up geniuses right... figure out why la...

tradition

2008-02-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

okay well i guess it has been a tradition whereby i will blog on the night of my holiday and have just finished with packing... haha
so YEAH! im going to BALI!! again... haha my dad la kinda last minute stuff bcos everyone cuti at the same time and dah la susah nk dpt everyone cuti on the same time... :P

ANYWAY today is tiring!!! i got 3 tuition classes from morning till evening... pergh! i hv to cover up for the four days im away kan and like penat gila weeiii..
BM, Add Maths and Chemistry all in ONE day... so sien wei..

then just now release stress la when razz ajak pergi NZ with the guys... not long after dat i got screaming phone call from my mom bcos we hv to leave the hse at 6.30am and i havent even packed yet... quite touchy.... :(

Oh yeah! before i forgot, GONG XI FAT CHOY to all chinese dudes and dudettes. and sorry i couldnt attend to some of the open houses yeah... but i hope my ang pow is not given away...

CHEERS! ;)

once upon a saturday

2008-02-03T15:10:00.000+08:00

LOOK! at the time.. damn and i just woke up... but takpe la right.. sunday watttt

anyway yesterday was fun and tiring and emotional :P and interesting and toomuchfun....
so yesterday kicked off with a bastard calling me early waking me up at 10am....
damn so yeah then headed to midvalley for li jia's b'day party.... it was fun la.. met up with sarveen, harith and muse then later was joined by hadi, juen, jason, haire and shahir so yeah had lunch and went to bowl... fun is all i could say la :P everyone went crazy...haha sad couldnt stay for a movie bcos i got plans for that night...

Went back at arnd 6 and i was so freaking tired so i 'nap-ped' ... was awaken by amber's screaming voice on my phone only to find out its 8pm and im supposed to pick her up bcos we're late for acap's supposed suprise party... haha tak mandi then terus pick her up... buat buat emo and told her my well prepared story then in the end she said 'Aww, u poor thing.Dont worry, firdaus. its okay' hahahaha then after dinner, a bunch of us stayed for red box... there is when the "MAGIC' happens.. haha then after that we wanted to go back but acap was 'thirsty' so we went for drinks? haha i wanted to ask for coke but then i dunno wat i asked then something that was not coke arrived :P.... after dat was history...

Then got back kinda late, smiling and having a bad headache... first thing i saw was my new year's reolution on the wall...FCUK! i screwed up 6 out of 10 of it in just ONE fcuking night... so THANKS A LOT AMBER!!! pfft and u too mark and acap and ween and amy....
macam sial betul :P

update

2008-02-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

bising la everyone suruh update so here goes la...
yesterday was fun man... esp the class party... anyhow i bid farewell to some of us bcos they decided to change to boarding school... im gonna miss y'all
-Hamzah
-Arief Faizal aka duck
-Nurliyana aka lookscanbedeceiving
-Farhana aka flip!

yeah so last week was fun weyy!! woo hoo from exams in iskl then the revo party... damn i cant forget that polka dots B... iskl was HEAVEN!... full of bouncy surprises :P and ended doing 9 papers on monday alone but as they all said it was worth it la... haha

so yeah! its the hols and im going to bali on thursday... hell yeah!!! and have u noticed that we've been at school 6 freaking days a week? DAMN!
if its not school then got cadets and some shits on saturday la...

Form 4 has so far been fun but tiring la... too much work i guess and the teachers! its like they dont knw i already hv enough work to do... for all i knw, a note is given to me...

'Firdaus, do this and inform me asap'
Firdaus 4O, Please do this and submit before bla bla'

sighness la and im already due with a lot of stuffs...

'Sudu kegemaranku'
'Sudu nampak kemas'
'Nama saya spoon' BAHAHAHA

Malaysians

2008-01-21T17:52:00.000+08:00

DRIVE-THRU!

If u see this, maybe u'd think okay la... its convenient for drivers with cars right bcos no need to find parking to park and malas wanna turun kereta and all but look at my interesting discovery.....

DAMN pemalas wei!!! hahaha funny thing, he actually got off his bike after that and took tissues INSIDE mcd... I was with abang and we're like WTF!!!
as lazy as i can be, i wouldnt be like that... aiyo typical Malaysians la...

anyway now im having mixed emotions la.... sighness, its killing me... im confused!! help me!!!!!

rewarding day :P

2008-01-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

heloooo!!
so today was public holiday but i hv school on staurday... WHAT THE HELL?!?!
tsk tsk tsk many rather wanted today school and ganti saturday as public holiday... sighness...

so anyway today i went out with jasmine to ou. bcos she claims that she's afraid of getting lost.... what bull... haha ridiculous la..
yeah so actually she wanted to get me something for pmr and out of nowhere i also hv to get her something too la... she got me a new quicksilver wallet and i got her a new perfume...she was so err shocked? haha she gave me a hint first la... haha

The strangest thing happened today, there was a honda jazz showcase at the concourse and of course got a few honda babes there la and i was looking from up while jaz went and get my present... finally she came beside me and this is how it goes...

firdaus: nice ey?
jaz: yeah, so sleek
firdaus: so hot too
jaz: are we talking abt the car or that model?
firdaus: *BUSTED*

hahaha yeah well what i was thinking... u guys judge laa... :P
so tomorrow's school and also saturday :(
later :D

Form 4 2008!

2008-01-05T19:35:00.000+08:00

:D :D :D
why the heck am i smiling all the way? hahahah
new year's? if i said i was at home watching stardust, u wouldnt believe me..
if i said i was at the mosque? lagi la u wouldnt believe me kan so enough said la.... :P

FORM 4!!
haha hell yeah...
i was streamed into pure science... what bullshit la...
my class rocks so much i cancelled my plans to take science-accounts class...
haha but joe did tukar la to that class...
ANYWAY! form 4 overall 2 days is fun... :P
first day, dah kena tangkap my sideburns are too long..... :P
first day, dah 'fly away'
So my busy days of running up and down the school, frequent visitor of the staffroom, flying here and there has started and i am glad!
Today already im so tired of vandalising the room from morning till afternoon...
although form 4 classes are like so 'dekat' kan, haha damn la...
so yeah! there u go, im enjoying form 4 currently...
HOW about you? :D

Oh yeah! i welcome 2 new fresh teachers, Miss Thien and Miss Farah...
well Miss Thien is like Mrs already la, damn kahwin gila cepat....
But both of them are very kind... i can see and tell... :D

screw you

2008-01-02T22:22:00.000+08:00

i am so freaking pissed man.... i can laugh or i can just freaking scream abt it...
screw you la...

true friends? best friends forever? what a bloody fcuking joke...

yeah thats you!! and i hope u freaking read this!!! or u just dont bloody fcuking care abt it??? what do u think i am?? lifeless?? well SCREW YOU!
I just cant fcuking believe that u dont hv a few freaking hours out of ur whole hours here just to fcuking meet up.... im not sad but im just bloody shitty fcuking upset with what u've become.... You made plans with ur friends? then what the hell am i to u??! some joke?! !$@#%

I hate to break it up to u but ur not the bloody same person i knew u before...
PROMISES? that u fcuking made are all SHIT!

YOU are just freaking UNBELIEVABLE

lets have the moment!

2007-12-29T14:23:00.000+08:00

wazaaaaapp??
i am just too estatic with joy... things have been great, awesome actually....
But damn i miss thursday, i woke up sad and i slept happpily and late... hahaha
Thursday was awesome, had lunch with pa and conquered klcc... wooh damn gempak la everyone... especially when i called that someone early in the morning and she sound like seriously like someone's mom... :P
Everyone got good results and someone got too overjoyed kan shahir? haha
To those who didnt get satisfactory results, just chill... its true what our seniors said, pmr is just nothing... its to determine wether u go to science or arts next year...

Last night was awesome! its like driving without problems and results: i won baby yeah!! haha i feel like wanna belanja somebody la... haha so today i refuse to go out except later in the evening, everyone's going to maya's for a makan makan or something... cant wait! her mom is a damn good cook! on other news, everyone is being so generous and its awesome! i cant think of what i dont have now.... any suggestions? :P

oh yeah im still hoping for that meeting with scarlet johansson or scarlet j? haha if dats ever gonna happen... im gonna be happy if i can just meet her in my dreams :P.... and tonight ma said got another family dinner and like okay la, probably they'll come with gifts now :D..... i wanna re-live thurdsday la, just like johan said kan... haha

New year's is coming and im turning a year older means life is no more games, its full of higher responsibilities and expectations.... wow 16 is just a big number.... so see u later!

i still miss her so much... is she thinking of me too?

Christmas 2007

2007-12-26T16:42:00.000+08:00

Hey.

So i went to penang from 22nd to 25th and it was great

Family. Laughter. Love. Music. : memorable time in penang...

Its amazing how u can discover someone and get close in 3days.....

And lets hope its only the beginning although its thousands of miles away.

Good luck for tomorrow...

KL World Marching Band

2007-12-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

I miss last weeeek!!!!!
It was the rockest est est week of the entire hols! From Bali then KLWMBC then Sunway and damn i want to go to the entire week again... But the REAL thing was KLWMBC.....

I seriously thought it was gonna be boring and stuff so i went to Bali la...oh yeah, Bali was also fun...anyway, it started on tuesday untill saturday but i only came back on friday and Johan was like 'wei sual! come la everybody's here!'
So i did come and the first person i saw at the ticket entrace was syahira!!! haha i came in selamba only without ticket then i heard a someone screaming 'HEY SONNY!!' haha i knew that voice, it was last year's nco.... so they got me a pass and baju and suddenly i started working... hahah all the crew was people from either chocrane, sji, sbu, cbn, mbs and others....

I was wasting my time and didnt realise my pass was labled 'Assistance' so thats why la the foreign bands kept asking me for stuff... Finals was the following night at dataran... It was waaaay awesomee..... everybody was like working while playing u know, it doesnt really feel like working bcos ur havin so much fun with it.... so out of 13 local and foreign bands, only 10 were selected and here are the results!

KL World Marching Band Comp.

1st place: Bodindencha Marching Band(Thai)

2nd place: Sultanah Asma School Band(M'sia)

3rd place: Marching Band Bontang Pupuk Kaltim(Indo)

Best Percussion: Rajavinit Bang Khen Marching Band(Thai)

Best Uniform: St Joseph (M'sia)

The results were expected la and VICCB got fourth but they worked hard though...Sultanah Asma were suprisingly damn awesome.... ViCCB was the only one with pipes.... Got la some thai guys kecoh kecoh till farid and I showed off our skills and left them asking 'why dont u participate?'... then we start swearing them in BM...:P

But at the brightside i had one of a time during that 2 nites... NOW i hv contacts from thailand and indonesia well apart from maya and she met lotsa cousins kannnn??? haha.... they're really niceeeee people...

especially that all girls colourguard from thai.... and Riana's band from indo consists of only 25 people... and they're quite awesome... they played how deep is your love and it was soo niceee... i asked and she gave the notes to it so now im working on it.... its kinda awesome when i asked for some emails since its so far and they offered me their numbers so :D:D:D....haha

It finished around 11.30pm and everyone left for soda c. apparently whit had a lil party set up for the crew.... It was awesommeee!! there were around 52 of us and everyone worked really hard and the result!

KLWMBC was a success!!!

So there u go! and i met Hannah Tan(again :D) and mtv's denise at sunway on saturday.... check out my deviantart, pics is all there..... and also u can visit http://www.klwmbc.com/ if the pics is still there.... so im tired and im scared of results.... so see yaaaaa!!!

BeaTch! here i come!!!

2007-12-10T23:58:00.001+08:00

Okay lets get to business.
i have just done with my packing. im going to BALI everyone,,
Thats right! BALI!!! hell yeah.. just a few of my cousins and I... damn its so last minute
Last year we went to PD so this year we decided to go to BALI! just decided last weekend though :P
My hp will only be switched on only at night time.. so anything, just text me :D
Ooooh i can already hear the plane, the people,the beach, the coconuts, the sun, the 'view' :P, the exotic small islands, the hot 'papitas'!! and YEAH!!!
i'll be back on friday... its gonna be AWESOME!!

and KLWMBC, good luck VICCB, i hope u lose... haha
Holidays rocks but things just currently sucks....
so adios amigos!!!

p/s: and guys, sorry abt not telling u abt this... :D

shocker

2007-12-09T19:51:00.000+08:00

Hows it going people!!
Holidays? rocks like stone!!
Hnyway last nite i was interrogated by my dad. it was kinda scary/funny
haha it was bcos he went to uncle azim's kenduri and a number of people was asking for me... :P
Regretted for not going though... sheesh
Just sat home for weekend with my sisters... stoning around :D
Liverpool: dont talk much la rafa benitez and that ref was so fucking stupid

and now i have to go, i got dinner at 9 with my 'adik' that i have neglected :(
well im gonna be a responsible 'abang' tonight

So there u go!

UPDATED!

and La Senza? Victoria's Secret? Prima Donna? French? :P

wheels frenzy

2007-12-05T19:14:00.000+08:00

damn man... yesterday was awesome! went carting with first-timer's ween well its kak ween now, haha and CW and laiza and alif and ika.... haha some people are so 'tall' that they had to put support seats behind their seats to reach the pedals...ween was crazy and kept skidding off, CW was okay, laiza was too 'fast'?
haha alif was alright and ika was and observer...she doesnt dare ride it... :P

anyway now kak ween is so kecoh bcos she got her P licence and she finish spm already.. and driving her car like mad....i cant even eat mentos in her car.... damn girl! oh yeah, we found the a short lyric of the year which is:

'Your hips, Your thighs, You got me hypnotized'
'Your hips, Your thighs, You got me hypnotized'

haha for a reason i think all the guys will like it...and its not made up its actually from a song.... :P

anyway holidays have been fun, its just i have a problem organising and prioritising.... i know people as a single and not like in a group so susah la wanna go out now.... too much friends? nahh i have a lil amount of friends but i have a lot of 'people i know'....and i dont really definiciate them as friends...

hah too bad la...today is so tiring and i cant wait for fridays night! :D :D

tiring day

2007-11-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

today is such a tiring day...
i slept damn late last night thanks to ween's new driving licence.. ur car is wicked btw
then today was late for rugby training, as usual double laps for me
then got a call from dad, im playing golf with him after prayers and i was like WHATT!?! so after rugby i rushed home and to get my golf set and stuff and rushed to ttdi and prayed there
then got home at about 9pm? yeah and went to arif's next door to play with his new fusbal (i should get one for myself though) then i got an sos from my friend and rushed home and started working! it wasnt that far anyway...hah

anyway things sucks, im trying to get over her and her name kept popping out everywhere, from book authors to tv characters to store names and to make things worse i know another 2 person whose got the same name as her...

and i wanna make a shout out to miss malaysia DEBORAH PRIYA HENRY for the miss world tonight! im banking on you so make me proud :D....
i'll be watching you tonight!!!

damn it and tomorrow is gonna be a long day... :(

2007-11-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna go home!!! damn it i feel london has been so short.... sigh

anyway i wanna make a shoutout to syahira who's birthday was 2 days ago....
sorry i couldnt make it to ur party and i il make it up to u when i get back okay sya?

im going to legoland tomorrow and im looking forward for it bcos ashley and her friends are coming too so yeah... and just for u to knw, someone's been hacking my blog so if u see some post thats not really me just solve the puzzle la.

i was looking through my sister's laptop and look what i found!

i was 11 btw and i had a bag for my belly!
so dont laugh! only i can :P

london 07

2007-11-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

hey everyone....
dont worry abt the previous post...girls come and go, i just hv to deal with it
ANYWAY! im having a blast here, have been here for a month now ey? yeah since after raya...

well i deserved this anyway since i didnt follow the family trip in june bcos of pmr.... its just my eldest sister, my mom and i also with kevin here and it has been BOOM! no words can describe it... my sister lives here anyway....

so apart from what i knew yesterday, im having non stop fun...lovin the weather, especially the people and ashley! haha she's my sister's neighbour's daughter and i knew her since i got here and yeah well she's really nice...she's in school now and im gonna meet her for starbucks later with her friends.... from her halloween party,to movies, to snowboarding and ice skating and kevin thought me how to skateboard and roman bath and carting with kevin....gah! kevin is my sister's boyfriend and he's the coolest! and he works with starbucks, the office i mean la...not the cashier.... he made my trip here the bomb....

i like going on the bus at 3.30...why? bcos thats when school kids here rides in it to get home and they are friendly...not to mention hot! haha the guys are also cool actually....

if according to schedule, im going home next week which i dont want to, trying to extend my stay here bcos i dont wanna go home! but yeah so many stuffs awaits me in kl and too many people miss me....haha

so anyway here are some of the pics on my cam...most of it is in kevin's and he still havent give me but il add some more later...

its freezing and we're drinking cold coke....genius!

picnic in the cold

Roman Bath with my sister...i mean big sister fyi

someone's tomb

Kevin V!

Roman Army wannabe

he wants to be an army too...well i cant stop him :P

its supposed to be sacred hot spring water

behind me is NOT a pool..haha

im missing much of the pics bcos its with kevin so il updater it when i get them....
im hungry and im still sad, i lost apetite bcos of her...damn, ashley's still in school now so i got nothing to do, thats y im blogging.. so later...

empty

2007-11-12T20:25:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...im still in london, will be home next week tuesday...my trip here here has been great and i dont wanna go back...
anyway today is the most devastating,the most saddest day of my entire life....i dont know how i can express whats in my heart...i feel so hopeless, i cant do anything, i cant think properly.....

Today i just got to know that my crush, the one thing that i ask, that i want, the little thing that i hoped for has someone else in her life.... the thing that made me so sad and so angry is that she snuggled him today....and i thought she was a girl of high potential, has high perceptions towards life and has principals that she held on....only to know that she was cheap and just like any other usual girls....for the everytime, i respected her bcos of who she is, i liked her bcos of who she is but its sad to know that all ur patience and ur opinions towards her is for nothing....she's just like any other girls....i take back all of the things that i've said about her... im really hurt.

i maybe can accept the fact that she's not intrested in me and likes someone else but the one person that she likes, why must it be the one that i really really freaking hate...i swear im gonna make him pay for this....he is no match for her..... he changed her to be someone that she's not.. and that's not okay with me.... i am gonna make his life miserable and make him suffer if he ever hurt her....

She was everything that i've ever wanted, the one thing that i ask but it didnt happen.... why must that be.... i think of her the every second of my life since i knew her 2 years ago.... but now only i know that the evrytime i think of her, she was thinking about someone else... why have i been wasting my bloody freaking time??? i cant get her out of my mind although how hard i try..
we all have our first true love and this is mine... why does this happen to me?? i never let a girl get in the way of my life but she did although how much i deny it....

i wasted my time for nothing and i cant believe i just did.... i dont think i can fall in love with another again ever again... although its still early to say so, i think i just cant.... i cant accept this is happening..... and i dont think i ever will..... i was in love over her....she turned me into such a fool... i drive myself crazy over her...i wanna stay here in london, where no one really knows me, where i can start a new life and be thousands of miles away from her...

my crush, i hope and i really hope that ur relationship does not work out,u'll have a miserable time with him and by then, i hope u would remember what i said about him....

'i feel blank'

insert a title here

2007-10-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! so here i am 1.36am just done with my packing....
pack?? hell yeah! im off to london with my sister and mom to get a month of rest and put my troubles and problems behind, just relax, chill and have fun....yeah!
anyway these 2 weeks have been great most probably bcos my sister is here yeah....everyday is damn packed with stuff to do/places to go.... its been pure fun...hell yeah!
oh yeah, that day i went to p ramlee musical on the first day, the props and all was great...it was cool but the story was quite a drag and was boring but was fun towards the end.... someone on the back row even snored like bloody hell u knw untill someone had to shhh him up....went twice though, one with the whole family and one last minute with jasmine's family bcos her sister cant go...
its amazing ho jasmine can chose me out of all the other guys...a sign?? maybe :P
guess who sat beside me in the first show????? STEPHANIE CHAI!!!! hell yeah right exactly next to mee!!! yeah i was like watching her searching her seat and was like 'come to me come to me' and she did u knw, kinda felt her ass when she had to go through me at the alley....damn she's fine....did i mention friendly too??? yeah talked to her during the intermission....she cant believe someone knew her and i was like how could i not??? haha got a pic but damn blogger takes forever to upload it....

whatelse happened ey? there was joe's open house then shahir's and nasril's and also ween's and sofya's and lynda's and erika's...yeah had good food....erika's was rocking....oh yeah! talking abt rocking!!! my open house/after pmr party...

it was damn effing the best party....haha too bad those who couldnt come or wasnt invited....haha there was juniors and seniors and also outside friends and also friends of friends and yeah! it was pure fun hosting it...
i wanna finish it at 10pm but ended around 11.30? yeah joe and shahir was the last to go back...haha shahir found something valuable in my wardrobe eh? haha cost me though to host it but it was all more than worth it...
i was hoping this someone could come but didnt show up...sighness

anyway im gonna leave tomorrow at 7am...have to wake up at 5.30 and here i am almost 2 not asleep yet...haha im gonna miss everyone laa...all the hangouts after school and friends and Miss G... damn im gonna miss everything for a month but still its all for me kan....

i gotta sleep so see everyone in a month's time??? yeah! so take care and enjoy to form 3's only! not u li jia!!! haha yeah so take care and ciao!

i want mcdonalds!!

2007-10-17T18:34:00.000+08:00

haha i've been stuffing myself with mcdonalds for the past 3 days....haha lemang lemang and ketupat rendang all first and second day can tahan la, but when enter 3rd day, im in for mcd, kfc, a&w and all...haha

Ramadhan this year really thought me a lot......i've learnt a lot and the most important thing is patience.. lookinh back and just see if i hv a bit more patience, i could,ve change a lot of things... its just that i get angry easily and sometimes things just go the opposite of the way i want it.... thats why sometimes my anger just go out of control.... so when its the time for minta maaf and all, it really means a lot to me la....

well anyway tonight im hosting after pmr party/raya open house....haha yeah so its bound to be rocking but dunno la, depends la on the condition...if the ying yang's there, then chun la....hah
after pmr life rocks la, i havent felt this since std 6, but its even better..... now that its after puasa, its like monkeys out of their cage...haha this saturday onwards, i am out all the time....haha plans la but still ring me if u wanna hang, sometimes sucks ot hang with the same ppl everyday....haha but im going off next friday, for a month? lebih kurang la..... damn nervous la, im competing myself la...wow....drag training's starting next wednesday...well hope all goes great for me later.... :P

oh yeah! i opened my treasure chest yesterday! well this treasure chest is like a chest where i put all my happiest/sad/meaningful experiences of life there, mostly sentimental la.....there's stuff like pics, clothes, lil stuffs, sticks, macam macam la.... anyway it really touched me to see how far i've become and my life present and past is just 2 different persons....haha anyway here's the stuffs that i found yesterday:

-a 1995 5ocent coin nabila gave me in std 2, the first thing she ever gave me,
-a card also she made me in std 4? yeah and also that 50 buck as a gift....amazing i havent use it
-red power ranger bag i used in kindergarden
-the video and pics during sri inai annual concert in 1998...i was the main storryteller
-the pic of adam,evon,aisyah and i during the aftermath of the concert....damn cute wei
-past years birthday cards
-last year's grease production, awesome pics and video and my almost t bird jacket... cant believe my hair was that thick that time.....it has been a year now...
-my first ever walkman, old edition ps and the first ever gigantic nintendo...damn
-primary school pics, hahah i was such a geek....yeah cant believe it and also trophies of nonsense stuff

banyak lagi la...malas nk type....anyway i gotta get ready now...abang is out buying ice i guess so see u in my next post....and selamast hari raya! maaf zahir batin! (i really meant that) :P

M-15, Kensington Park

2007-10-07T21:38:00.000+08:00

Helloooo....i am so happy to tell u dat im blogging from M-15, Kensington Park Homes, Sri hartamas... which is the residence to my good friend,
Putri Putih Sumaya.... or otherwise known as only maya....
Maya's house is damn chunted.... a very beautiful house...yeah no wonder she's always happy...haha anyway was here since 3 or 4 just now with sya and joe aka Mr Maya couldnt come bcos 'busy'? blah la wei!haha
Its the first time i came here without any intentions of studying..haha lepaked here then only realized it was late and sya and I wanted to go home but Maya's mom insisted us on staying for buka since it was only her, maya's lil sister and brother and also maya la....Sya still had to go but since abang buka outside, i decided to stay for buka la....i tell you, her mom is so damn friendly wei.... Lucky joe! :P

Her mom's also a great cook, she cooked this mee with something something just now and it was delicious... i didnt eat that extra stuff we bought at pasar juadah... anyway just got in after accompanying maya's lil adik-adik play bunga api and also it was maya's first time playing mercun...haha damn scaredy cat la her...

Right now, im in Maya's room, dont think different la....ur eyes can get blinded by the purple-ness in her room...well she's in the toilet...shit much? yeah i can hear her signs of relief... haha a day at Maya's was fun la...i love the environment here...should come here more often??? i think not...haha

oh yeah! stuuffs right after pmr, i shall post dat later la... too rocking!

4 hours

2007-09-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

Yeah!
Thats how much i get to sleep everyday since september....i sleep at 2am then wake up at 5am for sahur then i waited straight to get ready for school at 6..... thats just 3 hours of sleeping...the remaining hour is 30mins of sleeping at school and also 30mins. of sleeping if i force myself to study after i got back from school...

see....kesian rite, i knw im not the only one but still just 4 hrs out of 24hrs...thats like only 1/6 of the whole day...and im starting to have eyes like a panda....i tell u, after i finish pmr, my favourite past time then will be sleeping...

anyway as y'all know its my new link.....sorry gotta change it bcos its like too exposed...many people knew about my blog...and my blog is not for everyone to see.. its bad enough that other strangers knew my blog, they even commented as anonymous la, gues who la..... screw them la....

Pmr is seriously around the corner, i can see it coming now... sighness its comin so fast la... i think the last time i counted was in april, till then so much stuff/things/events happened that i lost counted...for all i know, its next week already...but anyhow for the past 2 months, i've been cutting down on everything...and im glad that i succeded although theres still a week left but still.... could say im ready la...just need to analize the gerak gempur papers i got this month.... after this, its all up to me and i hope god will help me through it..

i didnt do much during the weekend, just sat home studying like theres no tomorrow.... and also online, thanks a lot to everyone that kept me company during the weekend late nites....really aprreciate it....so im gonna name them..

i wanna say a special thanks to:
-ween
-joe
-sofya
-li jia! :D
-choo

yeah thanks a lot again....gosh, look at the time...i should continue studying so see everyone around and study smart!!! dont study hard or else it'll damage ur brain so study smart...:D

Cp dinner nite pics.....

Vengadesh victor

Chong Wan Yu

Ritesh and Andrew Matthias

Sara Lim

School Capt. Bernard leong

Best Senior Yeow Li Jia :D

Police officer David Tan :P

Soh Yun Han

Theres lotsa pics with every other senior but these all are just randomly picked except for li jia's... bcos i know she'd flip out if i didnt put her pic here....:P

Anyway all my seniors are awesome....i didnt know them that much although i really wanted to but they have been a very good example and i wanna be like them some day..u know, something like a mix of respectful kevin, sensible bernard, smart izzat, stern yun han, funny rafiq, cool david, friendly wan yu with a smile like li jia's? haha i'll miss everyone when they leave school later...

So yeah! study....i forgot...
bye again....

the one on the last nite

2007-09-22T13:04:00.000+08:00

*Yawns*
damn it, im having a bad headache since i woke up just now...argh its killing me but wat the hell!!!!
Last nite was pure awesome..my dad let me out for the cp dinner nite and i went... well lets just say it was quite okay, fun la actually.... got lotsa pics though, dats the most important one though bcos i wont be able to get them anywhere else... pics were awesome, i got one with every senior...
Those pics are a keeper....

The dinner finished around 11? yeah but that was like freaking shit early and them guys wanted to catch a movie but that was too i dunno.... thought of following sandip for drinks but got other plans la.... of course! its not like i can easily get a nite out when its just a couple of days left before pmr... and besides its friday nite and ur in the middle of kl...its a waste if u just kept quite

Met up with asyraf, anna, shuan,eym, chee wen and chee wen's hot friends at muse... and also ween
since that gala thing, muse has been our favourite port now....haha the place is chunted la.... well now i really had fun.i promised myself only coke for the nite but wat the hell! had a few shots, my few shots could may have been 6? that was how many i counted before i lost it....haha hit the dance floor, it really has been a while since i did and it was great... my hands were everywhere :P.... and chee wen's friend, leiza? its pronouced laiza but i dunno how its spelled...anyway she is definitely someone i would hit the the dance floor with.... after that had a few more shots and went home.... but the thing is, i cant remember wat happened after that, i woke up this morning still in last nite's clothes and there was dkny delicious' perfume smell on my shirt....still tryin to recall wat happened... could say was wasted la...damn

anyway dad was here just now and abang really covered me well... luckily didnt kantoi that muse chop on my hand :D... cant remember wat time i got home but dont worry, it was early in the morning la... :P since its fasting month, cant believe i did all that again...kinda feel guilty though but yeah things has happened and i really needed it, ive been feeling down since forever..

It was a nite to remember...thats all i could say....

'Its comingg!!!'

current music

2007-09-13T15:41:00.000+08:00

Im tellin u this song have been in my head for the past week, i've been listening to this like everyday...

Its Dada featuring sandy rivera and trix: Lollipop

this song is seriously damn dirty so i'll give just a line of the lyric la
'I'll lick ur ice-cream, and u can lick my lollipop'
hahah now u get the whole pic dont cha? haha its true la, not made up one...
So my advice after listening to this song is, 'STOP touching urself!' hah!
Actually this is what happens when ur stuck at home, studying non-stop...ur head goes seriously cuckoo...and for someone who's used to being out all the time, it kills me even more...

Anyway today is first day of fasting month at school and it was intresting...
i was cuckoo the whole day, even the teacher asked me wether im okay or not..haha dunno wat happened la, everything is funny today..
And yeah for those who view my blog frequently, i think y'all should take my blog la bcos u view my page like daily? and i update it like barely once a week...

So i cant wait for pmr to be over, i got stuffs lining up for what im gonna do after pmr, and i can say that i dont hv even a single second to waste... hah but yeah im still scared la that its coming so fast...

Life

2007-09-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

well lotsa happened since i last updated...oh yeah i was sick 2 days before merdeka, according to my bro i 'demam merdeka' but watever la but yeah i was got well on the 31st...anyway my fever was killing me, my temp was going up and down and it got me even more sick..kinda effed up la..haha but yeah as i said everything happens for a reason...so this was it,:D

On merdeka eve, my bro decided to throw a party at our place so i was like okay la...since i wasnt well, i didnt invite anybody and instead i stayed in my room and only got out to get drinks and foods and 'cuci mata'.....haha, people kept coming in and out of my room seeing at how i was and it was kinda anoyying though....But suddenly out of nowhere, came in Miss J and i was like 'woooo' and played sick although i really was okay then she was like being a super hot nurse that nite and we saw a tad bit of that firework though....well she was the only one my age bcos like she followed her sister so she stayed in my room la... i know this is my bro's work so for that i love him so much :D.....That hour and a half was great...there were lotsa talking and 'other stuff's'..hah!

anyway just had last brainstorming last week and it was seriously messed up, i was kinda relieved when they dismissed me at first but found out later that it was a big prank and everybody passed...cant believe i fell for it but anyhow im now a school prefect..:(

Last month and this month is like the hardest...i have to leave everything i always or desire or like to do..... and instead im doing everything that i dont wanna do like for example, studying really hard....Damn i've been like punishing my brains...God i need a time out...just one night will be great...

'everything happens to teach u something, well i just hv to trust that rite now'

holidays.....are over

2007-08-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

hell yeah its over....shit, i wished this time never comes...
this week have been so long yet so short...holidays really sucked la..im like kinda grounded at home bcos like everytime i wanna go out, my mom would start bising bising so better not la.... for the first time, the every single day of this week, i have like a routine which is wake up, eat, sleep, study study study....
i really freaking pushed my brains throughout the whole week... feel really kinda sad though...
anyway although the hols sucked so much...i believe that everything happens for a reason....well the reason is friday night and saturday...
Friday night was like my fairy tale night...it really felt like it....
my partner, Miss J was really really really b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l....i really cant believe that she was my date for the night...Being her herself has as always already mesmerized me and just wearing that hot dress, with her long hair and and and its just amazing.....i think the others really envied me though.....i personally looked well i looked pretty good that night despite my fucking bowtie was tied like 8times and it finally took my bro to tie it up for me... damn...
That night was magical and it even was when i found out Miss H T was there somehow....and i suprisingly talked to her and she was really really really talkative and friendly....i've always seen her in mags but she was even hotter up close...

The night was disturbed by Miss J's problem but it was soon resolved and i kinda calmed her down....She still looked pretty even with tears in her eyes...
'Dancing in the Moonlight'...thats all i can say

the thing finished early for us and Asyraf bring us all to muse....The rest of the night was history...to explicit i suppose....
this week is suppose to be the hardest week of my life and i just hope i can get through it.....lets just hope for the best...:D

'it just sucks when u know that something u want so much is the something that u cant have'

English Drama Nationals!

2007-08-21T15:55:00.001+08:00

English Drama Nationals 2007 in langkawi was the bomb! Its even more explosive when ur in the Kuala Lumpur team.... there is so much words to describe the kl team:

The most happening team?
The most loudest team?
The most chilling team?
The most cool team?
The loudest team?
The most awesome team?

That is what u get when u mix:
Izzat,Kiang,Theng,Marvin,Jonathan,David,Andrew,Suren,Phillip,Ivan,
Julius,Wai Keat,Andy,Izzaz,Firdaus and 2 oldboys Ravin and Christy together... plus our most beloved, most cool teacher, Miss E
Langkawi was the best experience i got so far in high school...Being the only form 3, at first i though i was gonna be lost and all my senior's would just treat me like a stranger but NOOO!!

ALL these 18 people are very good people..they even rock... they let me blend in the team easily without even bullying me and all....I would just like to say an endless thank you to my teacher, Miss E for bringing me in the team in the first place... If it wasnt for her, I would've miss this once in a lifetime chance....

ANYWAY!

Langkawi was the best...soo much stuff happened there...although we didnt qualify but we are still champions and i think that many other states just wish that they had a rocking team just like ours...

The things that i really miss right now:
the usual circles that we made
the loud cry tht boosts our energies up
the jokes we made at the table
the dirty jokes we make and made the teacher all blurr and laughed abt it
the one where teacher pulls my hair for saying bad words
7th floor project with Jonathan :P
the one where the form 4's was jealous bcos i got BOTH of the twins to MYSELF single-handedly:D
the anger while doing exam bcos everybody else was out flirting and stealing MY 'stuffs'!:D
the one where everyone was crammed into one room and doing lines in the dark
the one where i was 'raped' a few times..:P
the one where everyone was equal despite their ages...

Seriously! if i didnt join them for langkawi...i would've not known izzat was a player and was soo cool and also open-minded... i would've not known that stern looking ivan was crazy abt cartoons and was so funny.... its just amazing when u get to see the other side of people... although people say theres always next year, its different bcos the team rocks with all this 17 'special' people and who knows if we have new people nexr year and it wont be as rocking as this one... lets just hope for the best yeah...

the ever famous Kuala Lumpur champs

before comp.

our famous circles

props team...

they asked for it...not us..lol

geopark

with Ravin and Miss E

That could've been another state if they didnt curang...lol

no comment...lol

the uber famous pic tht made form 4's pissed at me...pfft

langkawi jetty with Theng, Andrew, Suren and Izzat

Miss E finally had her revenge after i took many pics of her sleeping...lol

I learnt a lot of stuffs here but the most important thing is....
Dont ever ever curang to KL team bcos u will end up with a boring state and instead of having fun in geopark,
y'all wasted the day by going to some legendary grave dats not even original! hahah
oh yeah, i forgot...the drama team also 2 other rocking boys, kevin and qi kit...
qi kit is damn good at props, thts why he's propsmaster though...but sadly he couldnt join us but i knw he really wanted to go... and also kevin aka detective luqmanul, i really owe it to him though bcos i got to go bcos he cant but however he's damn chunted at his role but unfortunately he had to go to uk to represent m'sia in scouts but he still rocks....

well, hols suck... i wanna repeat langkawi again!!!(dream on)

i forgot i had a blog

2007-08-21T14:51:00.000+08:00

hahah yeah i forgot i had a blog since its been a long time since i update it...
ANYWAY since uv nation, lotsa stuff happened...the good and the bad and the good and also the bad... just cant remember la.... its funny that when stuff happens, i wanna put it in my blog but i'll end up forgetting it when im in my blog... haha anyway i'll update this when im i remember stuffs... so

CHILL!!

uv nation

2007-06-10T17:43:00.000+08:00

UV NATION!!
wow last night was one hell of a night. security was a lil tight though but it still rocked.
it started at around 6 but wheres the fun at 6 o'clock?
so me,joe,shahir,faiz,syed,julius and nas went in one car and met sya,maya and lynda there.
when i stepped down there, i totally lost track at time.
i think i met a lot of people there but it was all for a split second as everybody was moving and moving. i know joe really lost it and yeah he was really active last night.
me joe maya and shahir went to the main arena as there is where the top dj's were and sya lynda and julius went to the urban room instead. they finally ended up in the main arena when they heard satisfaction all the way. haha i gotta say i liked scott project's better than benny benassi's but thats just me. julius doesnt even know when they changed dj's. for all he knew, there was music. haha eh and did y'all know that dj desire was a chick? now thats hot. btw, both main dj's was not english u knw nor american. they were german or something.
it was all fun UNTIL maya felt uneasy and felt sick.we tried to bring her to the medic booth but tak jumpa! so we had to bring her to the back and she told us that she had to go bcos tak tahan all that noise and people? we persuaded her to stay but it all stopped when she puked. So joe had to take her to the car la but noo, he was busy shuffling.
But he still went and took maya to the car and got lost to come back in so he decided to go home with maya instead. kesian johann! hahah. overall uv nation was good but i think tiesto last year was better. but uv was larger in number though. still! it was one of the best!

oh yeah, i hanged with kittykat for a while untill i lost her as well. so it ended up late and everybody was hungry so headed to nz and had 2dozens of chicken wings. haha yeah it made me forgot that i have school on monday.

school! i really dont wanna talk about it. the 2 weeks feels so short and short. it feels like it was just yesterday my parents went for holidays and now its already sunday and i have school tomorrow. and i also need to submit my sejarah project tomorrow. life currently could say its hard but it doesnt suck. yet!

sins and tragedies

2007-06-08T12:22:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! im here very healthy and breathing alive.
i apologise to most of you bcos i've been missing lately and not answering ur calls, replying sms etc etc. its just maybe i've been a bit busy.
anyways, for those who didn't know. i've been home alone with my brother at my parents during this holidays. yeap, just me and my brother at my home, home. we discovered a lot about the house though and kinda messed it up. i mean its really messy. well my parents and sisters went for holidays and im left bcos of exams. actually i chose to stay bcos i wanted to.

HOLIDAYS! is just so short. damn! i cant believe its already friday and i hv school on monday.
it barely feels like 2 weeks. shits la. but it was fun though. during these almost 2 weeks, i watched 5 movies! plus i watched pirates twice bcos apparently somebody fell asleep during the first time we watched it so we have to watch it again. anyway there was this one time i went with my brother at cineleisure for spiderman. the system was bloody down so had to buy it manually and there were the last 2 tickets left! but separated. but what the hell la kan i watched it and for the first time, i was bullied!! there was this group of girls on my right and they were tickling and throwing popcorn at each other. and it somehow hit me! and this girl next to me was playing sleep leaning against me. it was anoyying though bcos her friends dared her to. i can tell they were not watching the movie except when that goblin jr was without clothes. yuck! but it still was an adventure though.

there was also carting, crazy arcades, crazy pool and fusball etc etc. and i hv my awesome cousins to thank for so thanks guys.

oh yeah LTC was posponed so hell yeah! damn but i still cant run from this room problem.
and one friend told me what if they put one queen bed. it would be cool but still...

ey have u ever watched the tv or movies and have all this drama and problems that ended up with problem solved and thought that it could not happen to you bcos its really sad and devastating. anyway one just happened to me. i always see it in tv but thats all fake, they dont feel what i do right now. they're just reading lines and giving fake cries.

no reason to feel so emo la. i just cant deal with it. how do people deal with it anyway?
so im gong to the club later to kick somebody's ass in tennis. later!